COnfuseD, LoneLY, and WoRrieD
ALright, i never usually do this but i think it's time i actually tell youhow i'm feeling instead of just making up cute things to say in these entries.
First off, i'm incredibly worried about michael bobert. Not only is he going through his parent's divorce situation, having to move, losing all of his friends...even his fucking dog had to go - but now he's thinking about something drastic in order to solve his problems.. and chelsea, im not blaming you at all whatsoever, but you could have at least talked to the kid about nick, i mean you started going out with him the day before mike's birthday. i could care less, but you hurt mike, and i love him to death, so im just trying to stand up for my big brother.
But don't get me wrong, chels, you def. have you points too, i mean mike shouldn't have made a big deal about everything - it shouldn't be your fault, its not your problem that he likes you right? and i'm worried about you too hun, you're going through a lot with friends, and guys that are into you and your just to sweet to blow em off. lol i love you. i'm just saying i think it would be nice to call mikey bob up and talk to him-thats all he needs right now, is someone to talk to. i know its a lot to ask, cuz you have your own problems. im not taking anyone's side chel, and mike. i love you both to death.
last night kelly broke it off with kev, and poor mike has to deal with this now too. i love you kel and you def. made the right decision so don't worry about it. if you ever doubt your feelings for someone, you have to end it before you get too deep into things. im proud of you, and im here for you. mikey bob just needs everyone to back off for a while so he can learn to settle things himself without the help of a sweet girl like you kel. so you need to understand that he can't take the responsibility of a girlfriend right now, because hes not in the position where he can focus on a girl. so just help him through things as a friend, hun until he makes up his mind about things.
and kev. i'm sorry about what kelly did, i know you were crazy about her, and probably wicked confused right now as to why she did what she did. i guess the only thing i can tell you is sometimes you have to let people go no matter how hard it is, because if you really love them, you'll do what's best for them and what makes them happy. just hang in there hun, i love you
and believe it or not, i have a few problems of my own. i know sam would do anything for me, but im just woried that he doesn't feel the way i do. i think he really thinks he's in love with me, but he's in love with a girl he doesn't really know. im just worried he fell in love with a little girl from capin hill a few years ago, and can't get out of it now. i just wish he'd tell me how he felt. but who knows, maybe everythings fine. i love him more than life itself,and im happier than i ever have been. thanks for being there for me all this time, sam. i love you hun.
alright, here we go. i shouldnt be telling anyone this, until im sure, but i think i may be bi-sexual. and trust me this doesn't effect sam, or any of my other close friends. and no, girls, i don't have crushes on you lol..i know ive joked about it for a while now, but im starting to believe i really am attracted to the same sex. writing this probably screwed up my friendships with a few people, but if they don't understand, or never want to sleep over myhouse again, then i guess they werent really good friends then were they? im not even sure if i am, ive just been really confused lately, and i need some help through this
so ive come to a conclusion that if everyone just tells eachother how they really feel, things can be fixed through time. we just kinda need to help eachother through all this, and everything will be alright...i hope. so lets start talking. if you read through this, leave a comment, so we can sort through all of this shit. it wont help if you ignore it all.
-Kate
First off, i'm incredibly worried about michael bobert. Not only is he going through his parent's divorce situation, having to move, losing all of his friends...even his fucking dog had to go - but now he's thinking about something drastic in order to solve his problems.. and chelsea, im not blaming you at all whatsoever, but you could have at least talked to the kid about nick, i mean you started going out with him the day before mike's birthday. i could care less, but you hurt mike, and i love him to death, so im just trying to stand up for my big brother.
But don't get me wrong, chels, you def. have you points too, i mean mike shouldn't have made a big deal about everything - it shouldn't be your fault, its not your problem that he likes you right? and i'm worried about you too hun, you're going through a lot with friends, and guys that are into you and your just to sweet to blow em off. lol i love you. i'm just saying i think it would be nice to call mikey bob up and talk to him-thats all he needs right now, is someone to talk to. i know its a lot to ask, cuz you have your own problems. im not taking anyone's side chel, and mike. i love you both to death.
last night kelly broke it off with kev, and poor mike has to deal with this now too. i love you kel and you def. made the right decision so don't worry about it. if you ever doubt your feelings for someone, you have to end it before you get too deep into things. im proud of you, and im here for you. mikey bob just needs everyone to back off for a while so he can learn to settle things himself without the help of a sweet girl like you kel. so you need to understand that he can't take the responsibility of a girlfriend right now, because hes not in the position where he can focus on a girl. so just help him through things as a friend, hun until he makes up his mind about things.
and kev. i'm sorry about what kelly did, i know you were crazy about her, and probably wicked confused right now as to why she did what she did. i guess the only thing i can tell you is sometimes you have to let people go no matter how hard it is, because if you really love them, you'll do what's best for them and what makes them happy. just hang in there hun, i love you
and believe it or not, i have a few problems of my own. i know sam would do anything for me, but im just woried that he doesn't feel the way i do. i think he really thinks he's in love with me, but he's in love with a girl he doesn't really know. im just worried he fell in love with a little girl from capin hill a few years ago, and can't get out of it now. i just wish he'd tell me how he felt. but who knows, maybe everythings fine. i love him more than life itself,and im happier than i ever have been. thanks for being there for me all this time, sam. i love you hun.
alright, here we go. i shouldnt be telling anyone this, until im sure, but i think i may be bi-sexual. and trust me this doesn't effect sam, or any of my other close friends. and no, girls, i don't have crushes on you lol..i know ive joked about it for a while now, but im starting to believe i really am attracted to the same sex. writing this probably screwed up my friendships with a few people, but if they don't understand, or never want to sleep over myhouse again, then i guess they werent really good friends then were they? im not even sure if i am, ive just been really confused lately, and i need some help through this
so ive come to a conclusion that if everyone just tells eachother how they really feel, things can be fixed through time. we just kinda need to help eachother through all this, and everything will be alright...i hope. so lets start talking. if you read through this, leave a comment, so we can sort through all of this shit. it wont help if you ignore it all.
-Kate