A follow-up to last night....
I decided to not go to the open house tonight. This decision really has nothing to do with Dad's tirade last night, but more of the fact that the weather is stormy and windy and getting kind of cold. And frankly, I don't want to be driving around Chicago in weather like this, especially if I'm not familiar with the area. (That, and I don't want to waste a tank of gas.)
I had a hard time sleeping last night, so I'm exhausted anyway. I was hurt and angry over Dad being Dad. Plus, I didn't get to make myself any dinner once I got home from work, so my stomach was all rumbly. And it probably didn't help that I had a Rockstar drink on the way home, so I was good and caffeinated. Oh, and Bo woke me up twice (when I was able to fall asleep) to go out.
But this morning yielded a more rational discussion of last night. Dad is still not entirely cool about the idea, but I really don't care about that. Mom somewhat supports the idea; she's just worried about expenses and whether I can get any financial aid or a job to support myself out there. And they are both somewhat concerned about Kevin's fear/lack of commitment (I am, as well, but that's another story). Meanwhile, I'm still telling them that I haven't even applied yet.
So after rationally thinking about it today....I may end up doing one of the following:
--just finish up whatever classes I need at IUN to get my damn English Lit degree out of the way before I get out to California. Because having that degree would definitely help secure a job to make ends meet out there. (I'm kind of iffy about this, but it's an option.) Or....
--apply with Illinois Institute of Art and go for a semester or two before transferring to CalArts in about a year. Or.... (and this is the option I really don't like, but it's probably for the best)....
--hold off a year in applying and just keep working on my art for my portfolio. Because right now, I'm feeling frazzled and rushed trying to create stuff for it only to be sent off in two or three weeks. (I also have decorating the store and that tree to worry about on top of this.) Quite frankly, I don't want to send in sub-par material for submission. This way, I can get a second job and save save save money before I move out. And this way, I can get some input from current students in the animation program and HOPEFULLY from recently graduated alumni about what I'd have to look forward to in getting work once I'm done.
I get the feeling Dad felt bad about last night, but you know....he really can't take back what he said. He didn't have to be such a dickhead about it.
(Plus, I still need to get cracking on my book. I've hit a lull in the writing process because of the "OMG art school deadline approaching!" thing.) If I can get that published before I apply, that would be great. I'd like to be able to include a copy of the book with my portfolio. :D
I had a hard time sleeping last night, so I'm exhausted anyway. I was hurt and angry over Dad being Dad. Plus, I didn't get to make myself any dinner once I got home from work, so my stomach was all rumbly. And it probably didn't help that I had a Rockstar drink on the way home, so I was good and caffeinated. Oh, and Bo woke me up twice (when I was able to fall asleep) to go out.
But this morning yielded a more rational discussion of last night. Dad is still not entirely cool about the idea, but I really don't care about that. Mom somewhat supports the idea; she's just worried about expenses and whether I can get any financial aid or a job to support myself out there. And they are both somewhat concerned about Kevin's fear/lack of commitment (I am, as well, but that's another story). Meanwhile, I'm still telling them that I haven't even applied yet.
So after rationally thinking about it today....I may end up doing one of the following:
--just finish up whatever classes I need at IUN to get my damn English Lit degree out of the way before I get out to California. Because having that degree would definitely help secure a job to make ends meet out there. (I'm kind of iffy about this, but it's an option.) Or....
--apply with Illinois Institute of Art and go for a semester or two before transferring to CalArts in about a year. Or.... (and this is the option I really don't like, but it's probably for the best)....
--hold off a year in applying and just keep working on my art for my portfolio. Because right now, I'm feeling frazzled and rushed trying to create stuff for it only to be sent off in two or three weeks. (I also have decorating the store and that tree to worry about on top of this.) Quite frankly, I don't want to send in sub-par material for submission. This way, I can get a second job and save save save money before I move out. And this way, I can get some input from current students in the animation program and HOPEFULLY from recently graduated alumni about what I'd have to look forward to in getting work once I'm done.
I get the feeling Dad felt bad about last night, but you know....he really can't take back what he said. He didn't have to be such a dickhead about it.
(Plus, I still need to get cracking on my book. I've hit a lull in the writing process because of the "OMG art school deadline approaching!" thing.) If I can get that published before I apply, that would be great. I'd like to be able to include a copy of the book with my portfolio. :D