I don't... want to be fool hearted...
Ok...so I feel like writing...
A lot has happened to me in the past year. I know i've written numerous entries about how much I've changed and who I am and who I am not and all that stuff. And now the year is over... and I'm happy with who I am. I like me. I like who I'm becoming. I love love love my friends... I am going to miss them to such an extent that I would miss my arm if it were cut off or that I would miss Taylor Hanson if he ever decided to die unexpectedly.
I've missed music, as well. And now, I know you're all thinking..."doesn't she play constantly and listen to it all the time?" and the answer is yes... but all I ever did was compare myself to that music...and i tried to copy it and would get jealous that someone was "better than me"... and finally, I've come to realize that I need to be ME. My music can't be MIchelle or Vanessa or Amy or anyone... but me. And within that realization, I've been able to love music again. Like...Anna Nalick. (haha I know you hate her megs)... but when I listen to that CD i just want to put it as high as it can go and scream along..."somedayyyyyy love will find me...in the rough...somedayyyyy love will finally be enough..." I get lost in it again, and it makes me feel better...and in return I can write real songs again and get excited about them...cause they are ME... and I love that...
I have a new full time job at Remax...scott and I will be recording at the end of the summer... megs and I have our own reality show...life is just starting to get good...
me and booze have our last date tomorrow...I'm gonna miss her so much... she gets me... I'm so lucky to have people in my life that I don't want to say goodbye to...
I shine a little more lately
A lot has happened to me in the past year. I know i've written numerous entries about how much I've changed and who I am and who I am not and all that stuff. And now the year is over... and I'm happy with who I am. I like me. I like who I'm becoming. I love love love my friends... I am going to miss them to such an extent that I would miss my arm if it were cut off or that I would miss Taylor Hanson if he ever decided to die unexpectedly.
I've missed music, as well. And now, I know you're all thinking..."doesn't she play constantly and listen to it all the time?" and the answer is yes... but all I ever did was compare myself to that music...and i tried to copy it and would get jealous that someone was "better than me"... and finally, I've come to realize that I need to be ME. My music can't be MIchelle or Vanessa or Amy or anyone... but me. And within that realization, I've been able to love music again. Like...Anna Nalick. (haha I know you hate her megs)... but when I listen to that CD i just want to put it as high as it can go and scream along..."somedayyyyyy love will find me...in the rough...somedayyyyy love will finally be enough..." I get lost in it again, and it makes me feel better...and in return I can write real songs again and get excited about them...cause they are ME... and I love that...
I have a new full time job at Remax...scott and I will be recording at the end of the summer... megs and I have our own reality show...life is just starting to get good...
me and booze have our last date tomorrow...I'm gonna miss her so much... she gets me... I'm so lucky to have people in my life that I don't want to say goodbye to...
I shine a little more lately