MY LIFE IS OVER!!!
well...yeah today was just the worst!!! My first Love of my life just broke my HEART!! I don't know i want to talk to him so bad but just can't! (scared of what else is to come and what he'll say) MY life just seems useful i can't believe this!! i feel useless i'm hurt and i'm crying non-stop and your not here to wipe my tears like last time!!! what can i say i've based my life on you!! I loved YOU and at the same time i was so scared that you were going to hurt me and look i proved myself right or just jinxed myself. I've never felt like this for anyone before!!!I love you more than anything in this world nothing is compared to you and your the best thing i have ever had!!! I can't believe that you would do all these things behind my back and with one of my friends!! WHY? My luck to not be the only one you want!! I'm here lonely and you say you are too but your not hurting as much as i am right now i know that!! I'm addicted to you and i'm so dam scared right now i don't know what to do anymore?? say what you want, don't believe me and while your at it don't trust me for no god dam reason!!! you say you can't trust anybody well... i'm NOT EVERYBODY!!! you should know that. look at everything i have done for you!! remember all the things i've helped you with!!! I JUST CAN'T LET YOU GO....to this day i remember evrything from when i first saw you!! I've told you so much and no lies straight from my feelings i have never had!! I don't know what's going on with you but i've been here with YOU already for 3 yrs. and i'm gonna be with you as long as i can be and i'm not just gonna let you be all distant and disapear!!! it's not gonna happen i've waited and still am waiting for the day i can be with you, so your lucky i just can't seem to forget you and leave!!! KNOW I CARE ABOUT YOU!!! I'LL DO ANYTHING FOR YOU!! I HAVE THESE FEELINGS I'VE NEVER HAD BEFORE FOR ANYONE!! I DON'T LIE TO YOU EVER!!! I DON'T WANT ANYONE BUT YOU!! YOUR MY ONE PURPOSE RIGHT NOW!!! YOU KNOW HOW I FEEL ABOUT YOU THEY ARE ALL TRUE!!! YOUR NOT ALONE I'M HERE AND ALWAYS WILL BE!!!