this will be lame
Is one look enough?
I am at work waiting for my 1:30 meeting, so I was doing the normal routine crap, calling to schedule my hair cut, paying my cable bill.. browsing some sites, I took some time today to check out more of LJ, and man. There's this one girl who is probably the most beautiful girl I have ever laid eyes on.. I know it's only a photograph and I know i'll probably never meet her, let alone talk to her.. but it's fun to be enchanted, by just the moment itself.. it's so powerful, the moment. That image of her is gonna stick in my thoughts for the rest of the day probably.. These girls on here, on the internet.. they make me melt, cause they're just images, not really here with me. Where do all these people come from? their lives filled out online with millions of words, tons of pictures..
I've never been able to find my " online " identity, other then the usual jokes and meaningless chit chat, I have tried to have long lasting serious friendships, but it never works, the only way i could see it working is to confirm their identity in person, but most of the time they're completely different in person as they are online, or completely insane, cause they didn't choose you of course! yeah you can't fall for a girl online, cause then someone will get her before you go... or maybe not. That's the risk, it'll cost you more money and more effort in the long run to try and meet a girl online, then it would to just walk outside your door and just say " hi " on plane, in a grocery store, at work.. all it takes is " hello " why am i incabable of such simpilicity? I have my choice of who i want, yet struggle to make the first step. I feel like i have my imagination on one end, and reality on the other, and im lost in the middle.
Im at a point in my life where if i am gonna figure out who i am, i wanna figure out why i am so alone.... why i am not fullfilling other people as well.. I gotta use my paitence, wait it out.. keep the faith i guess. i guessssssss
I am at work waiting for my 1:30 meeting, so I was doing the normal routine crap, calling to schedule my hair cut, paying my cable bill.. browsing some sites, I took some time today to check out more of LJ, and man. There's this one girl who is probably the most beautiful girl I have ever laid eyes on.. I know it's only a photograph and I know i'll probably never meet her, let alone talk to her.. but it's fun to be enchanted, by just the moment itself.. it's so powerful, the moment. That image of her is gonna stick in my thoughts for the rest of the day probably.. These girls on here, on the internet.. they make me melt, cause they're just images, not really here with me. Where do all these people come from? their lives filled out online with millions of words, tons of pictures..
I've never been able to find my " online " identity, other then the usual jokes and meaningless chit chat, I have tried to have long lasting serious friendships, but it never works, the only way i could see it working is to confirm their identity in person, but most of the time they're completely different in person as they are online, or completely insane, cause they didn't choose you of course! yeah you can't fall for a girl online, cause then someone will get her before you go... or maybe not. That's the risk, it'll cost you more money and more effort in the long run to try and meet a girl online, then it would to just walk outside your door and just say " hi " on plane, in a grocery store, at work.. all it takes is " hello " why am i incabable of such simpilicity? I have my choice of who i want, yet struggle to make the first step. I feel like i have my imagination on one end, and reality on the other, and im lost in the middle.
Im at a point in my life where if i am gonna figure out who i am, i wanna figure out why i am so alone.... why i am not fullfilling other people as well.. I gotta use my paitence, wait it out.. keep the faith i guess. i guessssssss