The Kara Situation...
....Y'know, I wanted to try and write this in a humorous fashion to try and feel better about it, but the scene I want to parody just wouldn't work. Suffice to say..
" I don't wanna hear about no motherfuckin' hopefullys. All I wanna hear is, You ain't got no problem, Matt. I'm on the lil f**ker. Go back in there, chill yo'self out and wait for the cavalry, which should be coming directly.""
And what I need is a big black man to calm me down and say...
"You ain't got no problem, Matt. I'm on the lil f**ker. Go back in there, chill yo'self out and wait for the Wolf, who should be coming directly."
Though I'm not sure even the might Harvey Keitel, or even *DUNDUNDUN* Sean Connery could save me now.
Kara's laid down the ultimatum. Either it's the free love lifestyle I've built up, or it's her. She's not given a definite time limit, but has made it known she won't wait forever. Forever to the 16 year old girl (for those of you unfamilar with new age anthropology.) could mean anywhere between a month and a year, depending on what it is they're waiting for.
I'm afraid. I'm afraid of making the wrong choice. But I already know what my choice is sadly.
I love what I do too much, I'm addicted to loving and being loved. I'm so afraid of rejection I attach myself to those who like me. What she doesn't realize is I've built these relations up, I can't break them off. I care too much, and if it comes to hurting one person I love and hurting so many more...well, that's really no choice in my mind. I hate to Spock this choice, but I have to.
And I just know I'm going to nollercoaster over this...maybe...not one of the other people I relate with gives me this much greif over what I do..
(Note: The nollercoaster is derived from Star Wars Episode 3 and involves wearing lots of black, death, and mass amounts of pwnage despite being emu.)
"She was mine....I fellt it......rrrrrrrraaaaaaAAAAAAAA....." *Causes destruction of civilizations.*......no!"
And yes, I know I may be overreacting, but that's me. Now if you'll excuse me, I'll continue my slip into madness.
*Needs his rika right now. T_T, that or an "It Did Not Happen" card*
Sean Connery: "It's not the end of the world. There're plenty of others who can cope. Now then, let us go eat dead puppies. Now.
Me: "Sorry Sean, but I believe right now, I need loving, not comfort food..."
*slinks back to Gaia to sate his addiction.*
" I don't wanna hear about no motherfuckin' hopefullys. All I wanna hear is, You ain't got no problem, Matt. I'm on the lil f**ker. Go back in there, chill yo'self out and wait for the cavalry, which should be coming directly.""
And what I need is a big black man to calm me down and say...
"You ain't got no problem, Matt. I'm on the lil f**ker. Go back in there, chill yo'self out and wait for the Wolf, who should be coming directly."
Though I'm not sure even the might Harvey Keitel, or even *DUNDUNDUN* Sean Connery could save me now.
Kara's laid down the ultimatum. Either it's the free love lifestyle I've built up, or it's her. She's not given a definite time limit, but has made it known she won't wait forever. Forever to the 16 year old girl (for those of you unfamilar with new age anthropology.) could mean anywhere between a month and a year, depending on what it is they're waiting for.
I'm afraid. I'm afraid of making the wrong choice. But I already know what my choice is sadly.
I love what I do too much, I'm addicted to loving and being loved. I'm so afraid of rejection I attach myself to those who like me. What she doesn't realize is I've built these relations up, I can't break them off. I care too much, and if it comes to hurting one person I love and hurting so many more...well, that's really no choice in my mind. I hate to Spock this choice, but I have to.
And I just know I'm going to nollercoaster over this...maybe...not one of the other people I relate with gives me this much greif over what I do..
(Note: The nollercoaster is derived from Star Wars Episode 3 and involves wearing lots of black, death, and mass amounts of pwnage despite being emu.)
"She was mine....I fellt it......rrrrrrrraaaaaaAAAAAAAA....." *Causes destruction of civilizations.*......no!"
And yes, I know I may be overreacting, but that's me. Now if you'll excuse me, I'll continue my slip into madness.
*Needs his rika right now. T_T, that or an "It Did Not Happen" card*
Sean Connery: "It's not the end of the world. There're plenty of others who can cope. Now then, let us go eat dead puppies. Now.
Me: "Sorry Sean, but I believe right now, I need loving, not comfort food..."
*slinks back to Gaia to sate his addiction.*