A Day Off
It's so funny how I can post this stuff and then go back to my life and do the exact opposite of what I just wrote about! :)
I asked Tom to just lie with me on the bed last night because I needed a few minutes of down time close to him, and with my head on his shoulder, I was talking about stress and what all I haven't been able to accomplish because of my back and how every weekend, I end up sleeping as many hours as I can fit in around going grocery shopping, which totally drains me because it's such a balancing act of budget, what I can fix and what we're both supposed to eat. Arrgh!
And, he suggested that I take a day off during the week. What?! That's not allowed! And, then he proceeded to convince me that it could be my "me" time, when I do crafts or watch movies or stay online all day. And, I realized, um, duh! THIS is what I was talking about for our goal this month! I need some "me" time. I feel like weekends are my total crash and catch up on sleep and together time with Tom, so I don't really let myself just relax very much. AND, he said I shouldn't have it scheduled. WHAT? Me, not schedule something? Eek. How is that done? But, again, he convinced me that the way my stress and guilt-ridden mind works, if I schedule it, I'll just smoosh a bunch of stuff into that day and feel stressed about it instead of relaxed. Um, yeah. That made an amazing amount of sense. I married a smart cookie. (COOKIE MONSTER LOVE COOKIE!! Sorry.)
So. I'm going to do that. When I wake up in the morning, I will decide if today is going to be a regular "work" day or if I'm going to take it off, and then I'm not allowed to feel guilty about taking the day off. I'm supposed to do whatever comes and whatever feels good, whatever *I* feel like. Wow. This is amazing. Now, let's see if I can do it...
I asked Tom to just lie with me on the bed last night because I needed a few minutes of down time close to him, and with my head on his shoulder, I was talking about stress and what all I haven't been able to accomplish because of my back and how every weekend, I end up sleeping as many hours as I can fit in around going grocery shopping, which totally drains me because it's such a balancing act of budget, what I can fix and what we're both supposed to eat. Arrgh!
And, he suggested that I take a day off during the week. What?! That's not allowed! And, then he proceeded to convince me that it could be my "me" time, when I do crafts or watch movies or stay online all day. And, I realized, um, duh! THIS is what I was talking about for our goal this month! I need some "me" time. I feel like weekends are my total crash and catch up on sleep and together time with Tom, so I don't really let myself just relax very much. AND, he said I shouldn't have it scheduled. WHAT? Me, not schedule something? Eek. How is that done? But, again, he convinced me that the way my stress and guilt-ridden mind works, if I schedule it, I'll just smoosh a bunch of stuff into that day and feel stressed about it instead of relaxed. Um, yeah. That made an amazing amount of sense. I married a smart cookie. (COOKIE MONSTER LOVE COOKIE!! Sorry.)
So. I'm going to do that. When I wake up in the morning, I will decide if today is going to be a regular "work" day or if I'm going to take it off, and then I'm not allowed to feel guilty about taking the day off. I'm supposed to do whatever comes and whatever feels good, whatever *I* feel like. Wow. This is amazing. Now, let's see if I can do it...