Winter.
I've not posted anything for a long time, mainly because I've not felt that I had anything to contribute to humanity at large. Tonight, while watching Scrubs Season 4, like ya do, I heard a Joshua Radin song that I really liked, and so I listened to the entire record, which my roommate has on his iTunes, and I came across another song I've really liked for a long time. I went ahead and brought up the lyrics, and read along with the song... and as sad as the song is, and even though I feel something inside my chest right now that I've not felt in a very long time, I'm very happy to be feeling something this pure again.
Just so everyone knows, it's been a long time for me since I've felt anything other than what I guess would be considered boredom and a little bit of loneliness. I've been single for almost two years, and only recently I've been able to really shake off the emotional baggage that I've been carrying around since late 2006. At that point, I was crushed worse than I'd ever been before, and after a long while to contemplate it all, I'm finally over all of the hurt. This baggage has really effected a lot of the relationships I've tried to cultivate over the last few years, which usually end badly.
ANYWAY, before I get WAY too convoluted, listening to this song reminded me what it's like to be uncontrollably in love with someone, even if it reminds me of the agony associated with it. Go find the song somewhere to listen to, here are the lyrics:
Winter by Joshua Radin
I should know
Who I am by now
I walk
The record stands somehow
Thinking of winter
Your name is the splinter inside me
While I wait
And I remember the sound
Of your November downtown
And I remember the truth
A warm December with you
But I don't have to make this mistake
And I don't have to stay this way
If only I would wake
The walk has all been cleared by now
Your voice is all I hear somehow
Calling out Winter
Your voice is the splinter inside me
While I wait
I remember the sound
Of your November downtown
And I remember the truth
A warm December with you
But I don't have to make this mistake
And I don't have to staythis way
If only I would wake
I could have lost myself
In rough blue waters in your eyes
And I miss you still
I remember the sound
Of your November downtown
And I remember the truth
A warm December with you
But I don't have to make this mistake
And I don't have to stay this way
If only I would wake
I hope everyone who reads this is doing well. I wish you all the absolute best.
Just so everyone knows, it's been a long time for me since I've felt anything other than what I guess would be considered boredom and a little bit of loneliness. I've been single for almost two years, and only recently I've been able to really shake off the emotional baggage that I've been carrying around since late 2006. At that point, I was crushed worse than I'd ever been before, and after a long while to contemplate it all, I'm finally over all of the hurt. This baggage has really effected a lot of the relationships I've tried to cultivate over the last few years, which usually end badly.
ANYWAY, before I get WAY too convoluted, listening to this song reminded me what it's like to be uncontrollably in love with someone, even if it reminds me of the agony associated with it. Go find the song somewhere to listen to, here are the lyrics:
Winter by Joshua Radin
I should know
Who I am by now
I walk
The record stands somehow
Thinking of winter
Your name is the splinter inside me
While I wait
And I remember the sound
Of your November downtown
And I remember the truth
A warm December with you
But I don't have to make this mistake
And I don't have to stay this way
If only I would wake
The walk has all been cleared by now
Your voice is all I hear somehow
Calling out Winter
Your voice is the splinter inside me
While I wait
I remember the sound
Of your November downtown
And I remember the truth
A warm December with you
But I don't have to make this mistake
And I don't have to staythis way
If only I would wake
I could have lost myself
In rough blue waters in your eyes
And I miss you still
I remember the sound
Of your November downtown
And I remember the truth
A warm December with you
But I don't have to make this mistake
And I don't have to stay this way
If only I would wake
I hope everyone who reads this is doing well. I wish you all the absolute best.