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Lately i've been feeling like a bad girlfriend. Ikey and i went out for dinner last night, and i had really wanted to go to The Keg, but we went to Montana's instead like we always do. I was really dissapointed, since i work a lot and good weather has finally come so i wanted to go downtown and finally get out. Ikey didn't want to because of how he felt after work, and even tried to cheer me up after declining. It should have been the other way around, it should have been me who was understanding and cheered him up instead of causing more stress.. ; - ;
I feel like lately i've been ignoring his needs and just paying attention to myself. I know it's mostly because i have to, if i didn't focus on myself right now then working both jobs would be harder. But it's selfish of me to just push him aside till i'm done what i need to do. I guess i've just thought of him always being there, but it's different now that he has a job. :(
I also don't feel as close to him as i used to, like im secluding myself from him or something. I don't know why, but i know we used to talk a lot more than we do, and i'd love to listen to him go on about random things, even if i didn't care about them. But now i notice that i kind of blank out when he's talking about things i'm not interested in. I want to spend more time with him now that the good weather is here, but getting out when we both have the energy for it is hard, and it's rare that we actually keep to our promise to go upstairs when we want to be alone.
I'm gunna try to take better care of him like i used to, although i can't garruntee that my temper will change. Today a Red Bull truck showed up at McDonalds ((I wish i could have taken a picture and sent it to Least I Could Do!!!)) and we got free Red Bull. ((It wasn't a big transport truck. It was about as big as a Beetle Bug car, and there was a giant Red Bull can sticking out the back. It was so cool!!! ))
So i brought mine over to Ikey to cheer him up. It seemed to make him really happy, so thats good.
I feel like lately i've been ignoring his needs and just paying attention to myself. I know it's mostly because i have to, if i didn't focus on myself right now then working both jobs would be harder. But it's selfish of me to just push him aside till i'm done what i need to do. I guess i've just thought of him always being there, but it's different now that he has a job. :(
I also don't feel as close to him as i used to, like im secluding myself from him or something. I don't know why, but i know we used to talk a lot more than we do, and i'd love to listen to him go on about random things, even if i didn't care about them. But now i notice that i kind of blank out when he's talking about things i'm not interested in. I want to spend more time with him now that the good weather is here, but getting out when we both have the energy for it is hard, and it's rare that we actually keep to our promise to go upstairs when we want to be alone.
I'm gunna try to take better care of him like i used to, although i can't garruntee that my temper will change. Today a Red Bull truck showed up at McDonalds ((I wish i could have taken a picture and sent it to Least I Could Do!!!)) and we got free Red Bull. ((It wasn't a big transport truck. It was about as big as a Beetle Bug car, and there was a giant Red Bull can sticking out the back. It was so cool!!! ))
So i brought mine over to Ikey to cheer him up. It seemed to make him really happy, so thats good.