Red Light [Part One]
Title: Red Light
Author: projectmimiko
Rating: PG
Summary: “It is amazing how in one second your world can come crashing down.”
Genre: Angst
Pairing: Yoosu (Yoochun POV)
Red Light (Part One)
I was giddy. Like I am always, when I was around my 애인(lover)… my 천사 (angel)… my 준수.
We were coming back from our daily lunch date. In our own world, this was our ritual. Everyday, I’d pick him up at work at 12:00pm on the dot and we’d both go to our favorite restaurant and partake in a small, yet intimate moment, just he and I. Because our lives were as such, no one knew about our relationship. This time was our time-especially in my car, where we could steal hot, sweet kisses without anyone knowing or needing to know.
I took a side peek at the man sitting next to me staring out the window; he was quiet today…just like he always is when his boss was being an ass to him. I turned my eyes back to the road in front of me, but slipped my right hand into his left, that rested solemnly on his lap. In our usual way, he returned the gesture by squeezing my hand gently in assurance. At the corner of my eye, I noticed his gaze leave the window and stare at our entwined hands.
“Hey, Junsu… wanna move in together?”
The car jolted to an abrupt stop as the traffic light quickly shone red.
When I heard him take a sharp intake of air, I turned by attention back to him. He was still staring at our entwined hands, his thumb softly stroking mine… his pink lips moved…his auburn hair fell past his ears…
“Chunnie?” his voice squeaked; now his eyes were on me.
I broke my trance, “What?”
“You weren’t listening, were you?” His forehead scrunched up like he was nervous…or was he going to cry?
“Sorry...” Your beauty distracted me…Was what I was going to say but the look in his eyes stopped me.
“Don’t make me repeat myself.” He was irate now.
“Sorry.” I repeated and squeezed his hand again. “My attention is all yours now. What is it?”
He took another sharp breath, “Let’s breakup.”
My smile dropped, my heart dropped…I leaned back into the driver’s seat and stared out the window. The traffic light in front of me was still red, and the other green… there was a blinking “WALK” sign… but nothing moved…everything had stopped, or paused…or whatever. People on the street seemed to pause in their steps; cars that were speeding up ahead paused in the movements.
“Why?” squeaked from my throat before I could think. “Did…did I do something wrong?” I turned back to him. “Did I was something that I shouldn’t have? We don’t have to move in together if you don’t want to… please just tell me…why?” My eyes stung now but I couldn’t cry…just yet.
“Ch-” he murmured.
“What?”
“It’s Changmin… he… I, we slept together and I-”
Changmin was my best friend, my roommate, my half-brother, my brother.
Junsu turned to look at me now and my falling heart finally hit something hard and cracked into multiple pieces. I looked into those honey brown eyes that I fell in love with…wishing for him to laugh and claim it was a joke, say “April Fools!” though it was October (that would be like Junsu), or cry and say that he didn’t want to break up, that we could move past this (that would be like Junsu)…
But he didn’t… that’s not like Junsu.
I wanted to say it, but I couldn’t. All I could say was “Please don’t… please, I won’t be able to stand it if you-we…” My words jumbled, so I held his hand a little tighter and said the only word that didn’t get me tongue tied. “Please…”
He shook his head and pulled away murmuring that he could walk to work from ‘here’, wherever ‘here’ was and he slipped out of the car. His back was turned to me, so he didn’t see the first tear drop.
I wanted to call after him, but my throat was dry. I sat back in my seat only to the jolted again by the car horn of the driver behind me beeping impatiently, everything was moving again. I looked up, the light had turned green. I took a deep breath, and wiped my tears, my thoughts roaming…I’d go to his work, try to catch early him so we can talk. Or if he didn’t go to work I’d go to his apartment… I’ll wait for him. I took my foot of the brake and pressed lightly on the accelerator. I’ll wait for him, I’ll ask him to give me the chance to hear him out, and I’ll tell him that I’ll forgive him, no matter what. I’ll tell him that I want us to still be together, that I still loved him.
Determined, I continued forward, staring straight ahead. Then something moved at the corner of my eye, I turned and stared straight at the tanker truck that didn’t stop at it’s red light… and I saw white.
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Part 2: Orange Glow
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A/N: I'm back~! ^_^. This is just a little angst that i've been working on. It's sort of based on "Red Light" by David Nail. I hope you guys will leave a comment. The more comments i get the faster i'll update the next part XD.