laura the midnight chef!
So nothing of great consequence is going on, but sometimes you just feel like talking about life, you know?
Only two kids showed at the youth group I lead on Friday, but we had sooo much fun. Well, I did, at least. I'm going to miss it in an odd kind of way. Following this was my own youth group which was mini-putt and also pretty fun. My youth leader and I always banter. I sometimes wonder if I go over the top (I guess if I have to wonder, that's my answer), but most of the time it's pretty grand. There was once a time where I would go to youth group alone and feel out of place with these people I never talked to at school...but now, I'd consider them my friends (not best friends or really good friends...but people I can hang out with) and I'll miss them too, I guess. It's weird, because I don't usually miss people, or maybe I don't allow myself to do so. Things have really changed in the last year or so, and I'm still getting used to it. Changing your worldview and perspective on life after a stagnant 6 years has not been all easy!
The one thing that's not working out for me is a career. I know that I want to study languages because I want to travel. I know that I want to take that master's program at Acadia in youth ministry. I know that there's something else in there that I want to do, though...but what is it? I want to do what God wants me to do, but I don't really feel the push just yet. I guess that's okay, but I'm uneasy about it all because my mind has changed sooo many times. I cannot settle on one thing. This is good in a way, I suppose, because all of my past "careers" were obviously ill-suited. Luckily I figured that out pre-$15,000. Languages are useful, regardless what I actually end up doing. I don't know, sometimes I just want to move to the inner city somewhere and work endlessly at improving the lives of those people. I don't know. It's really weird not knowing and it's a bit disconcerting. I used to be totally at peace with that, but not so much now. I have these ideals in my head, and sitting next to them are ideas that don't really fit in with the ideals. In the end I know that God wins, and that's the way I need it, but occasionally my wants differ from that. I'm obviously just a worldly child with delusions of idealism, but that's just it: I'm worldly. How am I supposed to know what I need?
Man...wasn't MLK insightful, intelligent, and influential? After reading the following quote, I've become much more interested in the man and his life. Watching his "I Have a Dream" speech quite honestly gives me chills. I cannot think of a better spoken man. The bold is mine.
“Whatever career you may choose for yourself - doctor, lawyer, teacher - let me propose an avocation to be pursued along with it.
Become a dedicated fighter for civil rights.
Make it a central part of your life. It will make you a better doctor, a better lawyer, a better teacher.
It will enrich your spirit as nothing else possibly can. It will give you that rare sense of nobility that can only spring from love and selflessly helping your fellow man.
Make a career of humanity.
Commit yourself to the noble struggle for human rights.
You will make a greater person of yourself, a greater nation of your country and a finer world to live in.”
Martin Luther King, Jr
Only two kids showed at the youth group I lead on Friday, but we had sooo much fun. Well, I did, at least. I'm going to miss it in an odd kind of way. Following this was my own youth group which was mini-putt and also pretty fun. My youth leader and I always banter. I sometimes wonder if I go over the top (I guess if I have to wonder, that's my answer), but most of the time it's pretty grand. There was once a time where I would go to youth group alone and feel out of place with these people I never talked to at school...but now, I'd consider them my friends (not best friends or really good friends...but people I can hang out with) and I'll miss them too, I guess. It's weird, because I don't usually miss people, or maybe I don't allow myself to do so. Things have really changed in the last year or so, and I'm still getting used to it. Changing your worldview and perspective on life after a stagnant 6 years has not been all easy!
The one thing that's not working out for me is a career. I know that I want to study languages because I want to travel. I know that I want to take that master's program at Acadia in youth ministry. I know that there's something else in there that I want to do, though...but what is it? I want to do what God wants me to do, but I don't really feel the push just yet. I guess that's okay, but I'm uneasy about it all because my mind has changed sooo many times. I cannot settle on one thing. This is good in a way, I suppose, because all of my past "careers" were obviously ill-suited. Luckily I figured that out pre-$15,000. Languages are useful, regardless what I actually end up doing. I don't know, sometimes I just want to move to the inner city somewhere and work endlessly at improving the lives of those people. I don't know. It's really weird not knowing and it's a bit disconcerting. I used to be totally at peace with that, but not so much now. I have these ideals in my head, and sitting next to them are ideas that don't really fit in with the ideals. In the end I know that God wins, and that's the way I need it, but occasionally my wants differ from that. I'm obviously just a worldly child with delusions of idealism, but that's just it: I'm worldly. How am I supposed to know what I need?
Man...wasn't MLK insightful, intelligent, and influential? After reading the following quote, I've become much more interested in the man and his life. Watching his "I Have a Dream" speech quite honestly gives me chills. I cannot think of a better spoken man. The bold is mine.
“Whatever career you may choose for yourself - doctor, lawyer, teacher - let me propose an avocation to be pursued along with it.
Become a dedicated fighter for civil rights.
Make it a central part of your life. It will make you a better doctor, a better lawyer, a better teacher.
It will enrich your spirit as nothing else possibly can. It will give you that rare sense of nobility that can only spring from love and selflessly helping your fellow man.
Make a career of humanity.
Commit yourself to the noble struggle for human rights.
You will make a greater person of yourself, a greater nation of your country and a finer world to live in.”
Martin Luther King, Jr