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There are people out there who I thought were friends and I've kind of reached the conclusion that, uh, no... they aren't. When a friend does something that bothers you, you say 'hey, please don't do that because it kind of bothers me'. When you just stop inviting people places you are not a friend. You don't prevent friends from reading your online journals or myspace page. You don't hide things or blow a friend off for weeks on end. That's not friendship.
I've had to spend weeks wondering what I've done to a of couple people. I even posted to this journal saying 'please, tell me what i did wrong' but i got absolutely no response. After all that time thinking I realized that, had I done something really offensive, I would have remembered it.
I try with so many people. I try to stay connected, I try to help some people feel better even when things seem horrible. You know what I've gotten in return? I've gotten treated like an asshole without provocation and I got blamed for things that are not my fault. I got hurt by people I thought I could trust.
I feel like I've been judged and sentenced without anyone bothering to let me know. It's painful. It makes no sense. These are the kinds of things that leave my crying in the middle of the night because I just want to get along with others.
I've had to spend weeks wondering what I've done to a of couple people. I even posted to this journal saying 'please, tell me what i did wrong' but i got absolutely no response. After all that time thinking I realized that, had I done something really offensive, I would have remembered it.
I try with so many people. I try to stay connected, I try to help some people feel better even when things seem horrible. You know what I've gotten in return? I've gotten treated like an asshole without provocation and I got blamed for things that are not my fault. I got hurt by people I thought I could trust.
I feel like I've been judged and sentenced without anyone bothering to let me know. It's painful. It makes no sense. These are the kinds of things that leave my crying in the middle of the night because I just want to get along with others.