I mean, it's good to recognize your downfall...but the downfall is you're not even trying to do anything about it. Your problem is, you keep relying of relationships because it brings the focus away from how little you've accomplished. It makes you feel okay with mediocrity. That's why you cling to anybody you've ever dated, even if you didn't like them, or miserable. You needed them because you didn't want to be alone, because when you're alone, you think about these things you've just typed about.
I'm glad you've recognized you've had it easy. Honestly, what I think you need is some struggle, like most people you know has had. How you got this far just breezing through, I'll never know. Maybe moving out? Struggling with money? Life changing experience? Seriously, quit being a baby. I must say the shit that I've and I know most the people you know have made us so much stronger and independent, confident in our ability to survive.
You, my friend, are on the low end of Maslow's Triangle. You have the first tier-physical survival needs. You have no REAL sense of belonging, self actualization... It's all a face. You go out, loud, drink, become someone else, ignoring your more weaker (which have now apparently started to overcome your thoughts) aspects. Look, take it one step at a time. You got yourself a car. There's one step. I'm disappointed you missed school semester...you know my feelings on that. If you want to feel you're accomplishing something...then ACCOMPLISH SOMETHING! That should be enough motivation right there. You won't feel important unless you DO something important. You're sitting there feeling sorry for yourself but you aren't doing anything to rectify the situation. Can you defend yourself against what I'm saying? If you can't, then that should tell you something (and you know you can't because I'm Micah Mitchell and I'm always right).
What you need to do is to STOP WORRYING ABOUT RELATIONSHIPS OR OTHER PEOPLE. God, you're just like America. Always putting their nose out there in other people's shit and problems and not dealing with just America itself. Had to throw in some politics there.
VOTE RON PAUL!
Anyways, so seriously, yes, you are a little bit on the losing side here. But the thing is you can always do something about it. And, after you do, the pride you will feel from accomplishing something you didn't think you'd be able to accomplish should be reward enough. Pride is awesome, seriously. Why do you think I'm hot shit? Cause I am.
See that? I'm awesome.
You could feel that way, too, just send $15.99 to....whoa! I'm a product seller! Sorry, ADD, haven't taken my meds yet.
Speaking of, if you're depressed (which it sounds like you are) get yourself some anti depressants (there are some pretty cheap ones). Just get your ass back to Starbucks, get some insurance, and get the fuck to a psychiatrist. Seriously. They're just going to tell you what I've told you (except maybe more sugar coated).
I like relationships because I can put away my own shit and just concentrate my focus on helping someone else out without having to worry about myself. And you're right about me being by myself, all I do is let my mind wander and this is the end result.
See, this is the problem is that everyone always tells me to just go out and do something, but my problem is WHAT I should be accomplishing. I don't have a problem doing things, but I have to actually want to do them. If I get a goal that I'm enthused about and I see a good outcome for me, I'll do it in a heartbeat. But I can't find something. And I know the only thing you are gonna say is "school school school", but I don't know the end result of that, I don't know what I want out of school, so that's why I can't stay motivated. I can't just take classes until my eyes bleed because if I don't see the end point in taking the classes, I don't motivate myself to do them.
My problem, and oldman jason talked to be about this and nailed it on the head, is that I need to decide on whether I pursue what I love to do or pursue what is stable and financially sound. Because I've been offered jobs with places where I could make some good money, enough to move out and enough to live on my own for a long time, but, that leaves me with no time to do anything else, i.e. band, school, etc. So, I sign myself up to a company, make good cash and spend the rest of my days doing that, or do I get some b.s. job, play in my band with high hopes and try to go to school in between all that?
Your problem is, you keep relying of relationships because it brings the focus away from how little you've accomplished. It makes you feel okay with mediocrity.
That's why you cling to anybody you've ever dated, even if you didn't like them, or miserable. You needed them because you didn't want to be alone, because when you're alone, you think about these things you've just typed about.
I'm glad you've recognized you've had it easy. Honestly, what I think you need is some struggle, like most people you know has had. How you got this far just breezing through, I'll never know. Maybe moving out? Struggling with money? Life changing experience?
Seriously, quit being a baby. I must say the shit that I've and I know most the people you know have made us so much stronger and independent, confident in our ability to survive.
You, my friend, are on the low end of Maslow's Triangle. You have the first tier-physical survival needs. You have no REAL sense of belonging, self actualization...
It's all a face. You go out, loud, drink, become someone else, ignoring your more weaker (which have now apparently started to overcome your thoughts) aspects.
Look, take it one step at a time.
You got yourself a car.
There's one step.
I'm disappointed you missed school semester...you know my feelings on that. If you want to feel you're accomplishing something...then ACCOMPLISH SOMETHING! That should be enough motivation right there. You won't feel important unless you DO something important. You're sitting there feeling sorry for yourself but you aren't doing anything to rectify the situation.
Can you defend yourself against what I'm saying? If you can't, then that should tell you something (and you know you can't because I'm Micah Mitchell and I'm always right).
What you need to do is to STOP WORRYING ABOUT RELATIONSHIPS OR OTHER PEOPLE.
God, you're just like America. Always putting their nose out there in other people's shit and problems and not dealing with just America itself.
Had to throw in some politics there.
VOTE RON PAUL!
Anyways, so seriously, yes, you are a little bit on the losing side here. But the thing is you can always do something about it. And, after you do, the pride you will feel from accomplishing something you didn't think you'd be able to accomplish should be reward enough.
Pride is awesome, seriously. Why do you think I'm hot shit?
Cause I am.
See that? I'm awesome.
You could feel that way, too, just send $15.99 to....whoa! I'm a product seller!
Sorry, ADD, haven't taken my meds yet.
Speaking of, if you're depressed (which it sounds like you are) get yourself some anti depressants (there are some pretty cheap ones). Just get your ass back to Starbucks, get some insurance, and get the fuck to a psychiatrist. Seriously. They're just going to tell you what I've told you (except maybe more sugar coated).
I fucking love cake.
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See, this is the problem is that everyone always tells me to just go out and do something, but my problem is WHAT I should be accomplishing. I don't have a problem doing things, but I have to actually want to do them. If I get a goal that I'm enthused about and I see a good outcome for me, I'll do it in a heartbeat. But I can't find something. And I know the only thing you are gonna say is "school school school", but I don't know the end result of that, I don't know what I want out of school, so that's why I can't stay motivated. I can't just take classes until my eyes bleed because if I don't see the end point in taking the classes, I don't motivate myself to do them.
My problem, and oldman jason talked to be about this and nailed it on the head, is that I need to decide on whether I pursue what I love to do or pursue what is stable and financially sound. Because I've been offered jobs with places where I could make some good money, enough to move out and enough to live on my own for a long time, but, that leaves me with no time to do anything else, i.e. band, school, etc. So, I sign myself up to a company, make good cash and spend the rest of my days doing that, or do I get some b.s. job, play in my band with high hopes and try to go to school in between all that?
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