highs and lows.
To say it's been a rough couple months would be an understatement. Just about everything that could go wrong did. Sick me, sick car, sick bike, sick dogs. Deaths. Work has been hell.hell. Worse than I could ever have imagined. Finances got messed up due to a snafu with my property taxes that may or may not ever be resolved.boo.
2008 has officially been the hardest year of my life. It has been filled with some of the most difficult decisions and processes I've ever experienced. I've been assaulted from all fronts and I tell you what, I'm still fighting. My life isn't the way I want it and I'm not going to stop working on it until it is. It's going to be years before some things get better. Other things will resolve much much more quickly than that. Work should be better in a week or so. I've been saying that for 5 months. My social schedule should improve immediately. I'm on a new schedule that is much more conducive to a "normal" lifestyle.
And now for the thesis. I broke up with Heather just over a week ago. She was easily the best woman I've ever been with. And yet...there was...something...wrong. Something I couldn't put my finger on in a concise manner. I broke her heart after 11 months of happy times. It hurt me to see her like that but I had to go. I couldn't let things degenerate the way I've done in the past(several times). I did what I felt I needed to do, but that doesn't always make it an easy task.
2008 was one of the best years of my life. I look back on it fondly, I've come a long way. It pleased me, it challenged me every step of the way and it's got quite a lot of fight left. It had me against the ropes more than once, I had some very dark moments. The thing 2008 didn't know, I can't be beaten, only delayed. It's all in my mind and I won't quit.Ever. I've made up my mind and I'm walking the path to where I want to be, it's just a long road. The tricky bit is when what I want changes! Regardless of that, I'll keep putting one foot in front of the other.
2008 has officially been the hardest year of my life. It has been filled with some of the most difficult decisions and processes I've ever experienced. I've been assaulted from all fronts and I tell you what, I'm still fighting. My life isn't the way I want it and I'm not going to stop working on it until it is. It's going to be years before some things get better. Other things will resolve much much more quickly than that. Work should be better in a week or so. I've been saying that for 5 months. My social schedule should improve immediately. I'm on a new schedule that is much more conducive to a "normal" lifestyle.
And now for the thesis. I broke up with Heather just over a week ago. She was easily the best woman I've ever been with. And yet...there was...something...wrong. Something I couldn't put my finger on in a concise manner. I broke her heart after 11 months of happy times. It hurt me to see her like that but I had to go. I couldn't let things degenerate the way I've done in the past(several times). I did what I felt I needed to do, but that doesn't always make it an easy task.
2008 was one of the best years of my life. I look back on it fondly, I've come a long way. It pleased me, it challenged me every step of the way and it's got quite a lot of fight left. It had me against the ropes more than once, I had some very dark moments. The thing 2008 didn't know, I can't be beaten, only delayed. It's all in my mind and I won't quit.Ever. I've made up my mind and I'm walking the path to where I want to be, it's just a long road. The tricky bit is when what I want changes! Regardless of that, I'll keep putting one foot in front of the other.