Where am I going?
With all of this nonsense that I'm putting myself through (i.e. school, practicing, bands), I'm starting to wonder if I've completely screwed myself socially. Not in the popularity sense, but in the development of my personal ability to create lasting and meaningful relationships. I know that my closest friends understand (or at least act like they do) my goals, desires, and drive. But I have my doubts. I'm worried that I give off the impression to the ones that I care about the most that I don't give a shit about them. Now I'm not the kind of person that thrives on the opinions of others by any means, but this is different. I NEED those who might question my intentions to not hesitate to confront me if there is an issue regarding my purposes or feelings towards certain individuals.
On that note, here are my intentions:
1) do well in school
2) practice my craft until it reaches perfection (this having to do with a desire to better myself and to be happy with my playing, not so others will think that I'm a "badass".)
3) participate in as many performances with whoever and whatever while in school (oncampus or offcampus) in order to allow the practicing to develop into confident playing
4) participate in the groups that I've desired to since the beginning of school, and try to make some damn money (drum corp, Blue Man Group, Stomp... drum corps are potential for this summer).
5) find a gig (right now, the object of confidence and most potential is Belerian... and I don't expect that to change any time soon)
6) This one is important. Find time to myself away from everything, and find more time for others that are important in my life. I've already fucked that up with someone who put up with it for far too long. She is and will always be the most amazing person I know.
This is where I think I'm going:
After school, after the loss, after the storm; all of this work is going to pay off. In what way, I have no clue, but something great is going to happen to me and to those around me that I care about so dearly.
To my friends that read this: Lindsay, Justen, Joey, Dean, Sam, Josh, Kyle... I'm so so sorry for the neglect. It was unintentional. I love you all.
On that note, here are my intentions:
1) do well in school
2) practice my craft until it reaches perfection (this having to do with a desire to better myself and to be happy with my playing, not so others will think that I'm a "badass".)
3) participate in as many performances with whoever and whatever while in school (oncampus or offcampus) in order to allow the practicing to develop into confident playing
4) participate in the groups that I've desired to since the beginning of school, and try to make some damn money (drum corp, Blue Man Group, Stomp... drum corps are potential for this summer).
5) find a gig (right now, the object of confidence and most potential is Belerian... and I don't expect that to change any time soon)
6) This one is important. Find time to myself away from everything, and find more time for others that are important in my life. I've already fucked that up with someone who put up with it for far too long. She is and will always be the most amazing person I know.
This is where I think I'm going:
After school, after the loss, after the storm; all of this work is going to pay off. In what way, I have no clue, but something great is going to happen to me and to those around me that I care about so dearly.
To my friends that read this: Lindsay, Justen, Joey, Dean, Sam, Josh, Kyle... I'm so so sorry for the neglect. It was unintentional. I love you all.