why do i look when i know it still hurts?
(im sry jill, but im too caught up in my own shit tonight to write that for you. ill get to it hopefully tm night, when im feeling better.)
i know its just a song, but those words. "sometimes i dont feel what you feel." think and feel are two completely different things though. i guess im just too anxious to want to have a reason to trust her again. i want to rebuild.
maybe thats what she doesnt feel.
i really want to help. in that same sense i dont want to do nothing, either. lately i feel as though anything i say to her is the wrong thing and eventually feel guilty about it. and when i want to say something, or even just ask something, and stop myself.... i feel just as bad.
matt, u were right. this is a war. yet i still love her.
i still love her....
its the worst feeling in the world.
i know its just a song, but those words. "sometimes i dont feel what you feel." think and feel are two completely different things though. i guess im just too anxious to want to have a reason to trust her again. i want to rebuild.
maybe thats what she doesnt feel.
i really want to help. in that same sense i dont want to do nothing, either. lately i feel as though anything i say to her is the wrong thing and eventually feel guilty about it. and when i want to say something, or even just ask something, and stop myself.... i feel just as bad.
matt, u were right. this is a war. yet i still love her.
i still love her....
its the worst feeling in the world.