I really don't know what to think....
"Chaos!
Our busy minds asleep
We drudge across the land
Is this the coming end
Of our monarchy.
Harmless!
We meet increased demands
Is this the life we all
Had in our dreams
Our eternal nightmare.
All of us are blind to others!"
I'm quite frankly sick of these arguments that go back and fourth between my sister and mother. I try an stay out of it but it's hard when I'm literally in the middle of it when one is in one ear and the one is in the other. Tonight my mother and I were playing Madden 2007 that I normally do every now and then. (Yeah I know what a fun Friday night) Nyssa was supposed to call me and Josh was supposed to come over but I guess Melissa ended up coming over. Well I don't mind doing that with my mom it gets her happy though I beat her butt everytime hahahaha.
But as soon as we were almost done the second game she comes in from the mall or work or whatever. "They didn't have the shoes I wanted at the mall so I want to go to the Concord Mall tomorrow" So I'm doing this walk with my mom and then going over her friend Jack's for food. Though I should be going to bed since I got to get up at 7:30 but my mom has been helping out her friend Esther and she's been paying her a little bit. Which is better then nothing, right? My mom tells her our cousin Ali will be taking her. So she flips out and starts crying "You can't take me to work" throws the bottle of Hawaiian Punch she has in her hand against my wall it busts open the cap and it goes all over my wall, my pillow, sheet and blankets. And she starts crying and runs upstairs and of course goes on the computer.
So my mom tells her she has to wash my sheets, blanket, and such although my mom wanted to try an wash them with a towel. But i told her "Screw it just wash them" although I just washed my sheets since Lucy pissed on it earlier this week. So they yell back and fourth and asks why she just can't drop my mom off at her friends. But who's car is it? Exactly. Then she asks my mom "Why she has to wash my sheets and what not" "He's how old?" "What does he do?" I haven't been on god knows how long other then today. I'm on every now and then before work if I get time which is to update ipod or check my e-mail but that's it.
I really don't know what to think. Sometimes I'd rather be at work which I like my job but I'd rather be there then be here.
Another thing I know we don't have the money but I really wish we could get out of here. Honestly :( my mom's ceiling is falling apart and it's starting to leak and my Aunt I don't think really cares. And Keith wants me to come to his "Big Birthday Bash" on Sunday. Though he didn't ask me directly and I can't even remember the last time I saw or talked to him probably when Madden 2007 came out back in August. And then my Aunt said she wants me to go to my mom. But they but more him don't ask me directly so I don't see why I should go. I hate when people ask people stuff through me when they can do it. Or go through other people to get to me. My father did it and I fucking hated it and I hate when other people do it. Unless they can't get a hold of me then you should ask me yourself fuckers!