I'm really scared to know....
I know I'm still 20 years old and 21 in January but I'm scared to see how it turns out.
It just makes me so angry us living here. I know it's a place to live and a roof over our heads and that I should be greatful that we aren't out on the streets or whatever. But I heard my mom talking to my Aunt about us moving into section 8 which I don't want to do.
Right now I'm really hungry and don't know what to do. And my sister took the car so I can't get something to eat. My mom is like "I can make grilled cheese" I don't like grilled cheese and I told her I wanted something with meat and something filling. She said "You can eat some bologne" I despise bologne I really do. She told me she was going to go grocery shopping while I was at work but never did which sucks ass. I really wish I had enough money to move out into my own house. Not an apartment, or trailer or whatever. I wish I had a girlfriend in some weird way that I knew would work so I could get a place and she'd help pay rent. Or maybe a really close friend of mine and do the samething.
I wish there was a way like those McDonalds and fastfood games were actualy possible which they are but I find it another way for Americans to clog their arteries. But if I could win that I would buy myself a house and buy my mom and put the rest away in my account. I need to start saving and it's a bit chilly here I like it but I wanted the heat on she said she hasn't done that yet. I don't know what to do. I guess I should start asking for more hours and hopefully get my license and get money saved faster. I only have 16.50 hours this week along with maybe going to school as I discussed before and hopefully I'll get called in to come in on a day off or a bit early.
I hate driving around in the car looking at other houses and comparing them to where I live. Or thinking about how nice it would be to live in this neighborhood or this specific house. Everybody makes it look so easily...getting a house, a car, their license, finding a girlfriend/boyfriend, and finding out what they want to do and get out of life.
I need a better life and need to find some friends to hang out. Anyone wanna be my friend and hang out? Drop me an e-mail and if you know my number give me a call.
And ontop of this the fucking Flyers lose 3-2 last night who aren't doing too well. And the Eagles blow a stupid timeout before the 2 minute warning and come back to tie it and let them kneel on the ball till 3 seconds and kick a field goal! WHO THE FUCK AND WHY THE FUCK DID THEY CALL A TIMEOUT!? Sorry if it sounds like I'm complaining but I know no one reads this so why do I bother apologizing.
It just makes me so angry us living here. I know it's a place to live and a roof over our heads and that I should be greatful that we aren't out on the streets or whatever. But I heard my mom talking to my Aunt about us moving into section 8 which I don't want to do.
Right now I'm really hungry and don't know what to do. And my sister took the car so I can't get something to eat. My mom is like "I can make grilled cheese" I don't like grilled cheese and I told her I wanted something with meat and something filling. She said "You can eat some bologne" I despise bologne I really do. She told me she was going to go grocery shopping while I was at work but never did which sucks ass. I really wish I had enough money to move out into my own house. Not an apartment, or trailer or whatever. I wish I had a girlfriend in some weird way that I knew would work so I could get a place and she'd help pay rent. Or maybe a really close friend of mine and do the samething.
I wish there was a way like those McDonalds and fastfood games were actualy possible which they are but I find it another way for Americans to clog their arteries. But if I could win that I would buy myself a house and buy my mom and put the rest away in my account. I need to start saving and it's a bit chilly here I like it but I wanted the heat on she said she hasn't done that yet. I don't know what to do. I guess I should start asking for more hours and hopefully get my license and get money saved faster. I only have 16.50 hours this week along with maybe going to school as I discussed before and hopefully I'll get called in to come in on a day off or a bit early.
I hate driving around in the car looking at other houses and comparing them to where I live. Or thinking about how nice it would be to live in this neighborhood or this specific house. Everybody makes it look so easily...getting a house, a car, their license, finding a girlfriend/boyfriend, and finding out what they want to do and get out of life.
I need a better life and need to find some friends to hang out. Anyone wanna be my friend and hang out? Drop me an e-mail and if you know my number give me a call.
And ontop of this the fucking Flyers lose 3-2 last night who aren't doing too well. And the Eagles blow a stupid timeout before the 2 minute warning and come back to tie it and let them kneel on the ball till 3 seconds and kick a field goal! WHO THE FUCK AND WHY THE FUCK DID THEY CALL A TIMEOUT!? Sorry if it sounds like I'm complaining but I know no one reads this so why do I bother apologizing.