the day I'm having
Am I just not living the worst existence possible? Okay, well maybe not the worst, but definitely somewhere on the top ten list. What must it be like to hit 28 and have absolutely no clue as to the kind of person you are? Let me tell ya', it ain't fun. I am clueless, just like Alicia Silverstone. I am having the damnedest time trying to figure things out. It's like my mind is swimming in this miasma of confusion. There, a brain seizure. Who says words like miasma? Who understands words like that? I think I read too much.
I was hoping that after I got out of the hospital and started treatment that things would get better. Or, at the very least, clearer. Nope. Not better, and definitely NOT clearer. The meds are helping me to think clearly, sort of, but the things i've been thinking about don't make any sense to me OR to my therapist.
You ever feel yourself slipping into darkness? And it feels so inviting doesn't it? Like all would be right with the world if you could just let go. Just free yourself from the burden of having to make a choice. I'm still trying to claw my way out of that place, and I feel like no matter what I do, i'm going to lose this round.
I was hoping that after I got out of the hospital and started treatment that things would get better. Or, at the very least, clearer. Nope. Not better, and definitely NOT clearer. The meds are helping me to think clearly, sort of, but the things i've been thinking about don't make any sense to me OR to my therapist.
You ever feel yourself slipping into darkness? And it feels so inviting doesn't it? Like all would be right with the world if you could just let go. Just free yourself from the burden of having to make a choice. I'm still trying to claw my way out of that place, and I feel like no matter what I do, i'm going to lose this round.