Apr 03, 2005 15:59
I guess there is only one way to describe how i have felt of late. and that is every possible feeling known to man. From the happiest of happy, to the saddest of sad. I know for some it is hard, but as for me i am tryng to constantly become a better person, forgiving is one of those things that you have to always try to get better at......no matter how hard it is. Sometimes i think i might be boring, but i have come to a realization that i am not boring.....i just am careful, i dont like facing consequences. I guess thats why i dont do certain things. I'm scared. Scared to disappoint those that love me. The worst feeling in the world is when those that you love disappoint u......i cant explain the feeling but it feels worse than falling on ur ass, its not a sad kinda thing, and it doesnt make u mad......its more than that. I think that having someone disappointed in you feels much worse, just my opinion. (I look after you because i care, not because i dont want u to have fun, or be happy. I just dont want u to get hurt.) You hurt me.....but im better now.....I think this might bring us closer, make us stronger? do u agree? for those that appologized, its ok. I understand, but sometimes you should make a better judgement. Just a suggestion.... For those that do not remember what u confessed to me...dont worry my mouth stays closed....sorry u had to go through that hardship. I'm here for u. One of the best things to do when down or sad, is write a poem, i have written some pretty good ones in my creative writing class, my class liked them. When i wrote that i loved u and told u it was just to write it.... it wasnt, it was the truth. You are the truth, my truth. I meant every word i said. I believe u did as well. For now just want to state that I agree it was worth the rush...Thanx lol. On a happy note, i have to study for Religion write 2 papers, one for spanish on a movie i havent seen, and one for english that i have half done.....we shall see how much i get done today....adn then theres softball so w/e we shall see. Dont worry i will be fine, i think....just maybe a lil scared....but that can never hurt...I hope. as for my song it think that some will listen to the words and understand its significance. Great song.
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