college..
My freshman year is quickly coming to a close. I finished classes yesterday, and I start my finals on Tuesday. I began thinking about this year, and how it has changed me, and what it has meant to me. If you asked me to describe my freshman year in one word, I don't know if I could. Pivotal? Life-changing? Is there any one word that can describe anything in this life? I can tell you one thing: I've learned more about myself in these past eight months than I've learned in what seems like my entire life. I know so much more about myself, about my personality, about the choices I make in life, and maybe even why I make these choices. I don't really know where to start, so I guess some babbling will just have to do.
I can't really quantify my knowledge, and that makes this hard to begin. But I'll start with friendships. Leaving high school to me felt like something that was going to be an odd combination of easy and difficult. It ended up not being as hard as I expected, and I only miss the select few from high school who made it worthwhile. I maintain friendships throughout the school year, and when we get back home, it's almost as if nothing has changed. At school, I found people that I knew I could be myself around. Every single one of my friends was chill when I came out of the closet back in October. These friendships, I had hoped, were going to last forever, past college--those friendships that everyone talks about, the ones where you make your life-long friends. Over the year, I began to realize that this may not be the case. I don't really know how to explain it, maybe it's just the fact that we've been here together in such close contact with one another for so long that we're just simply getting sick of each other. Maybe the friendships aren't meant to be. The summer will truly be a telltale sign of things to come in our sophomore year.
Freshman year is such a learning experience. I can't believe how much I've learned about myself in these past few months. I simply get overwhelmed when I realize that it's almost over. We've gone through Hell and back with some of these people. Sophomore year is going to be good. At least I hope. I'm excited for what it has to bring, and what the summer entails. I'm going to miss UConn for the people it has brought me, specifically two or three of them. Without them (and you know who you are), this year would have been impossible. Thank you.
I can't really quantify my knowledge, and that makes this hard to begin. But I'll start with friendships. Leaving high school to me felt like something that was going to be an odd combination of easy and difficult. It ended up not being as hard as I expected, and I only miss the select few from high school who made it worthwhile. I maintain friendships throughout the school year, and when we get back home, it's almost as if nothing has changed. At school, I found people that I knew I could be myself around. Every single one of my friends was chill when I came out of the closet back in October. These friendships, I had hoped, were going to last forever, past college--those friendships that everyone talks about, the ones where you make your life-long friends. Over the year, I began to realize that this may not be the case. I don't really know how to explain it, maybe it's just the fact that we've been here together in such close contact with one another for so long that we're just simply getting sick of each other. Maybe the friendships aren't meant to be. The summer will truly be a telltale sign of things to come in our sophomore year.
Freshman year is such a learning experience. I can't believe how much I've learned about myself in these past few months. I simply get overwhelmed when I realize that it's almost over. We've gone through Hell and back with some of these people. Sophomore year is going to be good. At least I hope. I'm excited for what it has to bring, and what the summer entails. I'm going to miss UConn for the people it has brought me, specifically two or three of them. Without them (and you know who you are), this year would have been impossible. Thank you.