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4:00 in the morning. I can't seem to get to sleep. I close my eyes, but they won't stay shut. Lack of sleep is begining to become a routine visitor. An unwanted guest. On top of that, a lingering fear wraps its clutches around my mind, grasping tighter and tighter every passing day. It mocks me with thoughts of past days, the happiest, but then dropping thoughts of what to come. Thoughts I wish not to have, but have no control over them. Unable to stop them from swirling around in my head. A constant heavyness has also crept over my entire body. I've found myself feeling much weaker than I have ever been. Affecting me more than any illness I have ever had. A loss of interest in what I've normally loved to do. My only sancuary has been the days and nights I've held deep inside me. Everything seems to go away as bring them forward, but only for a moment before my new found enemies fight back. I cherish thoughs moments or relief. More so than anything.
So to the one I've grown to treasure more than all the precious jewels in the world:
I've tryed to be all you've wanted, but we both know I don't show much, there's no refuting it. But if you are to ever find yourself lost in another happiness, go if you want to. Don't let me hold you back, I will not try and stop you. I'll always be waiter here. I'll always have the memories of my happiest days and my happiest night. Thoes days spent with you. That night next to you. That night I found out what it feels like when you truely love somone. And if all my efforts were for naught, I thank you for at least giving me that. That and for everything else you have ever given me. Thank you.
So to the one I've grown to treasure more than all the precious jewels in the world:
I've tryed to be all you've wanted, but we both know I don't show much, there's no refuting it. But if you are to ever find yourself lost in another happiness, go if you want to. Don't let me hold you back, I will not try and stop you. I'll always be waiter here. I'll always have the memories of my happiest days and my happiest night. Thoes days spent with you. That night next to you. That night I found out what it feels like when you truely love somone. And if all my efforts were for naught, I thank you for at least giving me that. That and for everything else you have ever given me. Thank you.