Lord I Was Born....(Lyrics & Music by The Allman Brothers)
So I may be getting another job sooner than I thought. I asked why they changed their minds about holding off on new cases and I got the answer I thought I’d get (in a nutshell a lot of staffing issues). I had to call a spade a spade and say ya know what this job is just too much for me. It’s been 6 months and I’m just not at the level I should be. I could blame it on a lot of things but truthfully it’s just information overload and I just can’t find what I need to process it all and stay on top of things. After discussing this with my boss and she her boss they agreed to hold my new cases and basically it was agreed for me to go talk to the head of HR and see about other positions in the agency I’d be more suited to. I know it’s for the best and I’d prefer to be proactive about this in particular (even though I have a hard time with all the other things I should be proactive with) rather than end up unemployed again. Also, it sucks to have to admit I failed at something I’m supposed to be qualified for and decent at. It was kind of a risk I took going in though returning to the field. It’s not to say I can’t do it somewhere else under different circumstances. For now I’ll see what’s available in the agency first as their might be something better suited to me. I vowed I would never do residential anywhere though which is what was posted in the interoffice job site. Maybe talking with the HR director will yield something else. As much of an effort I could make I think it was agreed that only so many attempts can be made before I have to say enough is enough and I need to try something else. I’m pretty sure I’ve reached that point and I am fairly sure my bosses are not going to say “hey, stick around and try again”. They’ll probably keep me around until I find something else but they’ll push me to make sure I’m doing just that.
I really wish I could just not be stuck with such limited options career wise. That’s no one’s fault but mine though. Part of the reason this job is hard is because it takes a type A personality and I’m more type B. Type A’s love a lot of stimulation at a fast pace and can do detail well. I like some stimulation but at my own pace and too much detail is overwhelming. Also Type A’s live in the here and now and I tend to live in future and the past. I am constantly thinking (for the past) of what could’ve been, what if something were done differently and (for the future) what will happen if this takes place or what are all the possible scenarios for this particular goal or task. Focusing on one thought or one thing at a time is hard because it takes a lot of concentration and mental energy and therefore takes me more time. My mind is just all over the place. Notice I totally rambled after the first sentence and segued into something totally different. Just like I’m going to again cause I’m tired of thinking about this…..
So I had to go to the UPS in the ghetto today and boy does their customer service suck. I was there ½ hour or so waiting to pick up one package. I had to return my “special” clock a week or so ago for repair and just got it back. It looks like they totally replaced it with a new one so I’ll see how long this one lasts.
Soap talk:
GH - so Spixie didn’t get married at all. Which means what now? They need to do something with these two more interesting than they have cause otherwise waiting for a real wedding will just be painful if not at a minimum boring. Would love to have seen Jason give a toast though but the pink tie was probably enough. That he can play the straight man to everyone’s goofiness was fun enough to watch. Dante & Lulu? We’ll see. I really just want Sonny to find out the truth about him and Claudia at one time ‘cause it’ll be interesting to see him go bonkers and they’ve dragged both secrets out long enough. A who killed Claudia story would be interesting too. (Damn you Sarah Brown for leaving).
OLTL - blah. Boring. I just don’t care about the TTB story anymore, certainly not anymore than I do RSG. Stick with the good stuff please.
One more ep of Warehouse 13 down.
I watched Trauma live and it was definitely intense. Some serious action scenes which makes me question if NBC can afford that CGI stuff why are they forcing Leno on us 5 nights/week with the excuse that he’s cheaper than a drama? Anyway, I’ll give the show a shot and see what becomes of it.
TV off by 10 and posting this now. I got my boring book back so I can chop away at it. First ½ hour of The Introvert Advantage though.
Damn you nervous habit! (Must stop fidgeting and peeling skin off fingers)