So deserving

[professional]

Turn off the lights,
Burn the pictures,
cut out the headlines,
erase the distance,
smoke fills my lungs and I dont care
the flames engulf the room and I dont care
horrible things I've done and horrible things I do
I dont deserve this moment, I dont deserve this moment...
take this life and tear it into pieces,
scatter them across the ocean,
drag them to the far ends of the world
ripe my heart from my chest
I deserve worse than this...
...I deserve worse than this, kill me, erase me, feel me and then hate me.
I deserve all of this,
Leave me with nothing and leave me again,
leave me for someone if you can
I dont want to lie to you
you dont want to lie to me
you dont deserve this
YOU NEVER DESERVED THIS!