ONE silly stupid complaining entry about things that i usually yell at people for doing...
I do like college. Do not get me wrong. However, lately it has been so much of a burden that I would rather go home...and just be at home where I don't ever get to go. All I want to do really is to be able to DRIVE somewhere. I want to have more than just Josh as my friend. Honestly, how did that happen? I'll tell everyone something useful, just because everyone tells you that college is a good place, doesn't mean it is. There are times where you feel like your feet aren't even touching the ground because you are so lost. It doesn't happen often, but when it does it's WAAAAY scarier than anything you will experience.
It would also help if I had something a little more dependable. I am using vague terms here because I am being a hipocrit. I would really like it if things could have stayed the same, but I guess that's just a silly wasteful thought. People say one thing, and then do another. People treat you differently than everyone else. AND to ice up that fat cake, people look down on you and give you an attitude of "eh...she doesn't really know anything." Even though I'm as far away from my family as I can get, I barely speak to people from high school, some how I feel like I'm right back where I started.
I suppose I'm just not used to having only one person to confide in. I love joshua, I do. It's a difficult thing to adapt to. Alot of people wish everyday to just have ONE person they can feel like that with. I used to have plenty, and well now I don't. I suppose it's punishment for taking it for granted or just not always using it. Oh, well. Life comes at you fast...sometimes I think it's unfair. Objects swirling around all the time, and sometimes you don't even know something happened until it's done and over with.
That's my philosophical update of the year. Won't happen again, I'm sure.
Have a good day.
It would also help if I had something a little more dependable. I am using vague terms here because I am being a hipocrit. I would really like it if things could have stayed the same, but I guess that's just a silly wasteful thought. People say one thing, and then do another. People treat you differently than everyone else. AND to ice up that fat cake, people look down on you and give you an attitude of "eh...she doesn't really know anything." Even though I'm as far away from my family as I can get, I barely speak to people from high school, some how I feel like I'm right back where I started.
I suppose I'm just not used to having only one person to confide in. I love joshua, I do. It's a difficult thing to adapt to. Alot of people wish everyday to just have ONE person they can feel like that with. I used to have plenty, and well now I don't. I suppose it's punishment for taking it for granted or just not always using it. Oh, well. Life comes at you fast...sometimes I think it's unfair. Objects swirling around all the time, and sometimes you don't even know something happened until it's done and over with.
That's my philosophical update of the year. Won't happen again, I'm sure.
Have a good day.