Belligerence
I'm sorry I haven't written for so long. Honestly, I've been trying to find the right words to say. I've had an interesting couple of weeks. I've changed my views on quite a few things lately. I've become so tired of all the drama. Unfortunately as a result I've distanced myself from people. I've changed up who I've been around. I've been avoiding Vince's house for the most part. That's something I've needed to do for a long time. I'm making a few more friends here in town. Lately I've been spending a lot of time with my friend Sean. That's been surprisingly fun. I've been laughing quite a bit more than usual..just doing stupid things like having a bean bag fight, getting coffee. It's been interesting. I haven't been cutting, I'm proud of myself for that. I'm sure most people can't tell the difference anymore between me saying I do or I don't. A lot of people seem to think I'm lying either way, but I don't really care anymore. I'm proud of myself for once. That's enough. I'm almost done for this semester. For that I'm grateful. Summer will be a much needed break from reality. At least during the week, I'll still be working weekends. I'll be picking up some more hours here soon. Right this second though, I just want a break. From everything, from drama, from school, from work, from life mostly. Like I said, it's better...but I just want to sleep for a few days. Maybe next week I can actually do that. Like I said though, for the most part all is well...I'm just tired. I think that'll have to be enough for tonight. Blessed be.