hard to save a life
wow. i can't believe how often i used to write in this thing....in highschool it was daily , sometimes more. thats crazy....now i'm lucky if i go on here once every 5 months.
so an update....on the life of katie rose.
my 21st birthday is in 1 week. :) yay. i'm kinda excited, but worried. i'm not a really big drinker right now...and i'm scared that once i am 21 and all my friends are inviting me to the bar with them, that it may develop into something more. so will keep myself well aware of the situation that may take place if i let myself get out of control. i dont want to end up like certain people i know, where drinking is their main priority and they waste all the money that they dont have on it.
i'm really excited for this xmas. i will get to see all my family again :). last year the closer family ( my mom and all her siblings, plus their kids), went to florida to stay with my grandparents...which was AWESOME....but it meant that i only saw those family memebers , not the other 35 of them that i normally see on xmas at my aunt linda's house. so this year is back to the norm again, and i cant wait ! plus dave hasent been to my aunts xmas party for 2 years....so everyone is excited to see him.
classes...... are kicking my ass. i cant wait for this semester to be over.....and i wish next semester would not start. i want nothing to do with school at the moment....but i just tell myself that i have to keep in there. i can apply to the nursing program this january....however the chances of getting in are slim to none.....because of the massive amount of people applying, and the 216 applicants taht are accepted. and of those 216 the students who were turned down last year have first dibs....and there were over 250 of them. so my hopes of getting into the nursing program for this fall are slim to none. :(. and it depresses me. i just want to be done...i just want to get my degree.
money. right now...i'm broke. but soon....things will be awesome. i start a second job dec 18th and i am very excited. i will be workin mon-fri 8am-330pm making $11/hr. then friday and sat night i will waitress at applebees. and then of course going to school mon-thurs 6-9pm and sat 9am-12pm. BUT....the good news...aside from being crazy busy....is that i will be able to bank mad cash. which is awesome because the next big step in my life is approaching. :).....
.me and dave are looking at apartments , we're plannin on moving sometime between july and next xmas. but by then i will be able to save plenty of money and be making plenty of money that we will have no problem doing this :). i'm very excited. we are going to get an english bulldog puppy and name him bugsy :). it will be awesome.
last , but definately not least....this has been one of the worst months ever. it has been incredibly depressing . which is making it hard for me to concentrate on school...or anything for that matter.
first....october 25, my kitty lily was put to sleep during a surgery on her tooth . :'(. i have had that cat since i was 5 , and she was so incredibly important to me. i even have a tattoo of a lily...for her. so this was the start of a downward spiral of events.
a week later i recieved a phone call from my previous boss from coldstone. the girl that i had worked with for 2 years died...of a heroin overdose in detroit. i was shocked and sad, however i did not attend the funeral because i hadnt seen her in awhile and it would be akward.
a week after that daves "grandpa" died. George. and that was terrible for me....i was very close with both him and hazel...and he was such a sweet guy. it was mostly heartbreaking because of how sudden it happened...a week before he died i was over there hanging out with them, and he was FINE. nothing wrong at all...within 3 days he was in terrible condition. he looked like he lost 30 pounds , his skin was bright yellow (from liver failure), and he looked paralyzed. he couldn't move...or talk...or close his eyes. it didnt even look like him.
then...the day of georges funeral...just before thanksgiving.... i got a phone call that jil wojcik died. ....this was the worst yet. Besides the few passing at occ i had not seen jil in a few years, however i always thought about her....i always wondered how she was, because i knew she was struggling with drugs...that was part of the reason that me and her stopped hanging out like we used to. but a few years ago, jil was my best friend. from about 8th grade until 11th grade jil and i were almost inseperable. we lived at each others house, and we spent every moment we could together. she was my best friend. to find out that she died, at the age of 20, was just .....unbearable. seeing her mom and her brother at the funeral was heartbreaking. i couldnt believe it.
if anyone else dies....dont tell me. i cannot go to another funeral this year.....i just cant.
it was a terrible month for me.
i just keep hopeing that the new year will bring better news for me.
well. that is what has been going on with me. i'll write again in 6 months
so an update....on the life of katie rose.
my 21st birthday is in 1 week. :) yay. i'm kinda excited, but worried. i'm not a really big drinker right now...and i'm scared that once i am 21 and all my friends are inviting me to the bar with them, that it may develop into something more. so will keep myself well aware of the situation that may take place if i let myself get out of control. i dont want to end up like certain people i know, where drinking is their main priority and they waste all the money that they dont have on it.
i'm really excited for this xmas. i will get to see all my family again :). last year the closer family ( my mom and all her siblings, plus their kids), went to florida to stay with my grandparents...which was AWESOME....but it meant that i only saw those family memebers , not the other 35 of them that i normally see on xmas at my aunt linda's house. so this year is back to the norm again, and i cant wait ! plus dave hasent been to my aunts xmas party for 2 years....so everyone is excited to see him.
classes...... are kicking my ass. i cant wait for this semester to be over.....and i wish next semester would not start. i want nothing to do with school at the moment....but i just tell myself that i have to keep in there. i can apply to the nursing program this january....however the chances of getting in are slim to none.....because of the massive amount of people applying, and the 216 applicants taht are accepted. and of those 216 the students who were turned down last year have first dibs....and there were over 250 of them. so my hopes of getting into the nursing program for this fall are slim to none. :(. and it depresses me. i just want to be done...i just want to get my degree.
money. right now...i'm broke. but soon....things will be awesome. i start a second job dec 18th and i am very excited. i will be workin mon-fri 8am-330pm making $11/hr. then friday and sat night i will waitress at applebees. and then of course going to school mon-thurs 6-9pm and sat 9am-12pm. BUT....the good news...aside from being crazy busy....is that i will be able to bank mad cash. which is awesome because the next big step in my life is approaching. :).....
.me and dave are looking at apartments , we're plannin on moving sometime between july and next xmas. but by then i will be able to save plenty of money and be making plenty of money that we will have no problem doing this :). i'm very excited. we are going to get an english bulldog puppy and name him bugsy :). it will be awesome.
last , but definately not least....this has been one of the worst months ever. it has been incredibly depressing . which is making it hard for me to concentrate on school...or anything for that matter.
first....october 25, my kitty lily was put to sleep during a surgery on her tooth . :'(. i have had that cat since i was 5 , and she was so incredibly important to me. i even have a tattoo of a lily...for her. so this was the start of a downward spiral of events.
a week later i recieved a phone call from my previous boss from coldstone. the girl that i had worked with for 2 years died...of a heroin overdose in detroit. i was shocked and sad, however i did not attend the funeral because i hadnt seen her in awhile and it would be akward.
a week after that daves "grandpa" died. George. and that was terrible for me....i was very close with both him and hazel...and he was such a sweet guy. it was mostly heartbreaking because of how sudden it happened...a week before he died i was over there hanging out with them, and he was FINE. nothing wrong at all...within 3 days he was in terrible condition. he looked like he lost 30 pounds , his skin was bright yellow (from liver failure), and he looked paralyzed. he couldn't move...or talk...or close his eyes. it didnt even look like him.
then...the day of georges funeral...just before thanksgiving.... i got a phone call that jil wojcik died. ....this was the worst yet. Besides the few passing at occ i had not seen jil in a few years, however i always thought about her....i always wondered how she was, because i knew she was struggling with drugs...that was part of the reason that me and her stopped hanging out like we used to. but a few years ago, jil was my best friend. from about 8th grade until 11th grade jil and i were almost inseperable. we lived at each others house, and we spent every moment we could together. she was my best friend. to find out that she died, at the age of 20, was just .....unbearable. seeing her mom and her brother at the funeral was heartbreaking. i couldnt believe it.
if anyone else dies....dont tell me. i cannot go to another funeral this year.....i just cant.
it was a terrible month for me.
i just keep hopeing that the new year will bring better news for me.
well. that is what has been going on with me. i'll write again in 6 months