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well i realized that George is making me go insane. i havent posted on here because everything was great and i didnt feel so down. now im almost at my lowest low. george and i are fighting, and i feel like my ednos is taking over me because of this. ive never not been wanted by someone, not that he doesnt want me, but you know. we arent talking. and weve been "together" for about 4 months... and he still hasnt asked me out. so i just feel like the reason is bc im not skinny or pretty enough. i use to not give a shit about what i looked like, (i mean i was always focused on my weight, but i didnt care about my hair and all that jazz) but now everyday, i feel like i have to get ready for a big night out so he will think in his head "jeeze, shes so beautiful, i just want to be with her every second". i cant stand this.
then finals are coming up next week. im so skrewed. my friend and i arent going to smoke pot until next weekend, but not very much. and then we wont smoke until finals are over. i honestly dont know how i am going to survive. i mean, i must do it. i feel like smoking keeps me sane.
i will just have to start going to the gym alot in replace of it.
then finals are coming up next week. im so skrewed. my friend and i arent going to smoke pot until next weekend, but not very much. and then we wont smoke until finals are over. i honestly dont know how i am going to survive. i mean, i must do it. i feel like smoking keeps me sane.
i will just have to start going to the gym alot in replace of it.