"Thou art a villain, I jest not!"
Just a disclaimer, this is not intended for any of my lj friends. This is intended for someone else who, unbeknown to me until very recently, has been spying on my lj and VERY selectively been reporting back to other parties.
Ok, I'm a pretty understanding person, and certainly not without faults, but who the hell do you think you are?
How dare you.
How dare you abuse my confidence and discuss my personal matters with others. I would understand if I believed you were doing this out of good natured concern for myself or someone else. But so far this looks like nothing more than malicious attacks on my character. From what I understand (and if I'm wrong, please correct me), your information comes in part from conversations that you overheard. Is it not possible that you misheard or misinterpreted something? And this potentially faulty information has come back to hurt me and those I care about (and yes, that includes Jess).
Furthermore, the issue of you reading this blog and relaying information to others is astounding. I have no idea how it is that you tracked me down on this website, and quite frankly, that's not the issue at hand. But it is clear that you sifted through my personal musings, looked for a particular name, and took whatever was said or even inferred as gospel. Then presented these personal musings as facts to someone else. That is a flagrant violation of my right to privacy, and an abuse of a media that is intended to update my friends (primarily those from high school) about my life.
Had you read with a more objective eye, you would be aware of how ridiculous your claims truly are. I didn't think I would ever need to clarify to anyone that this is a first person account primarily of my thoughts and feelings. I don't always mean what I say because odds are I'm writing when I'm in a particular emotional state and I myself have trouble seeing things clearly. Further, what I say here is meant for a very specific audience. I have not been keeping the privacy settings as high as I usually would because I thought it outrageous that anyone else would find my blog and misuse it in such a way.
But if being more specific about the inner workings of my personal life is going to show you how misled you and those you have been speaking to are, allow me to be blunt here. I am attached to someone. I've been attached to him for nearly two years now. I have spent almost every day of those two years being brushed aside because, as fate would have it, he has been attached to another friend of mine. I do not hold this against either of them, and I wish him every happiness, but my feelings for him have been constant nonetheless. Why would I, when I have feelings for one, pursue someone else?
Other than finding some great friends, my years at this school could basically be summed up in terms of loss. I have lost time, money, ambition, and without these close friendships and constant trust in God I probably would have driven myself mad. And yes, I speak very highly of my friends on this page and I have no problem being very open about how much I love and admire them.
You chose to make your own assumptions about one such person and pervert what I say here into something that would be damaging and hurtful to myself and several others. Further, you did this all behind my back, not even allowing me a chance to defend myself against you. Once again, had you spoken to me, humbled me, I would not be offended. I have no problem with people confronting me about such things, and I'm happy to be completely candid to whoever chooses to be completely candid with me.
I'm not sure who you are, although I have it narrowed down to a pretty small circle, but I do know this about you: you are a coward. You chose to seek out information in ways that you did not thing would get back to me and opted out of allowing me my due process. That tells me that you did not want to be caught. But you have been caught, and I'm very close to pinning you down and speaking to you myself, because I'm not afraid of confrontation enough to let this go away.
I've said a lot of biting things just now. And I imagine that when I talk to you it will be difficult to keep my composure, but I don't hate you or desire any kind of evil for you. I will continue to pray for you and all of the parties in between us, but I still think I'm entitled to an explanation.
Ok, I'm a pretty understanding person, and certainly not without faults, but who the hell do you think you are?
How dare you.
How dare you abuse my confidence and discuss my personal matters with others. I would understand if I believed you were doing this out of good natured concern for myself or someone else. But so far this looks like nothing more than malicious attacks on my character. From what I understand (and if I'm wrong, please correct me), your information comes in part from conversations that you overheard. Is it not possible that you misheard or misinterpreted something? And this potentially faulty information has come back to hurt me and those I care about (and yes, that includes Jess).
Furthermore, the issue of you reading this blog and relaying information to others is astounding. I have no idea how it is that you tracked me down on this website, and quite frankly, that's not the issue at hand. But it is clear that you sifted through my personal musings, looked for a particular name, and took whatever was said or even inferred as gospel. Then presented these personal musings as facts to someone else. That is a flagrant violation of my right to privacy, and an abuse of a media that is intended to update my friends (primarily those from high school) about my life.
Had you read with a more objective eye, you would be aware of how ridiculous your claims truly are. I didn't think I would ever need to clarify to anyone that this is a first person account primarily of my thoughts and feelings. I don't always mean what I say because odds are I'm writing when I'm in a particular emotional state and I myself have trouble seeing things clearly. Further, what I say here is meant for a very specific audience. I have not been keeping the privacy settings as high as I usually would because I thought it outrageous that anyone else would find my blog and misuse it in such a way.
But if being more specific about the inner workings of my personal life is going to show you how misled you and those you have been speaking to are, allow me to be blunt here. I am attached to someone. I've been attached to him for nearly two years now. I have spent almost every day of those two years being brushed aside because, as fate would have it, he has been attached to another friend of mine. I do not hold this against either of them, and I wish him every happiness, but my feelings for him have been constant nonetheless. Why would I, when I have feelings for one, pursue someone else?
Other than finding some great friends, my years at this school could basically be summed up in terms of loss. I have lost time, money, ambition, and without these close friendships and constant trust in God I probably would have driven myself mad. And yes, I speak very highly of my friends on this page and I have no problem being very open about how much I love and admire them.
You chose to make your own assumptions about one such person and pervert what I say here into something that would be damaging and hurtful to myself and several others. Further, you did this all behind my back, not even allowing me a chance to defend myself against you. Once again, had you spoken to me, humbled me, I would not be offended. I have no problem with people confronting me about such things, and I'm happy to be completely candid to whoever chooses to be completely candid with me.
I'm not sure who you are, although I have it narrowed down to a pretty small circle, but I do know this about you: you are a coward. You chose to seek out information in ways that you did not thing would get back to me and opted out of allowing me my due process. That tells me that you did not want to be caught. But you have been caught, and I'm very close to pinning you down and speaking to you myself, because I'm not afraid of confrontation enough to let this go away.
I've said a lot of biting things just now. And I imagine that when I talk to you it will be difficult to keep my composure, but I don't hate you or desire any kind of evil for you. I will continue to pray for you and all of the parties in between us, but I still think I'm entitled to an explanation.