Ok, I probably should have updated this thing basically every day from the time I last posted until now, because there's just been that much going on.
here's the easiest possible recap:
Boy likes girl. Girl likes boy. Boy buys girl flowers and boy and girl spend much time together throughout the week. Friday boy invites girl to adoration, Mass, and then house for dinner party and awesomeness. After that boy kisses girl while watching movie. Then boy admits feelings but says he can't get in relationship with girl b/c of Divine Intervention. Awkward weekend followed by long talk on Monday concerning God's will and the emotions that make girl human (but also make her suck by her own account).
Come on people, this is Franciscan. If you're not going to date someone, then don't do things like invite them to adoration. Or the flowers thing, that was also a pretty big indicator. So not much more than an hour after that long talk he calls me to see if he can bring over a platter I let him use. Andy said that he was probably just trying to feel me out or try to initiate some sort of meeting. But I told him that I'd get it tomorrow. Right now I'm not so sure that he deserves to be able to assure himself that I'm ok.
Anyway, I'm just upset right now. It's been coming and going. More than anything I'm upset at the fact that I thought I'd grown up so much since freshman year, only to find myself in a similar (though slightly less repulsive) situation. I think it's time to initiate the time honored tradition of avoidance until I can numb myself towards him. It's worked in the past, so well that it literally saved some friendships (well, one anyway). So that's the deal.