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too much of what happened pisses me off. i can't work with ambiguous bs. i'm supposed to be happy and excited? why? when i want to do something it's a big frown face and no. i'm sick of feeling like this. i didn't do anything wrong. not one single thing. however, it seems that everything gets blamed on me. you did this...you did that....well apparently i control the whole universe now.
why am i the one who always cares too much or is interested too much? why is it me who is always wondering what's going on or how everything is going? I'm sick of giving and giving and getting nothing back. except sporadically. i'm sick of the on and off concern.
don't bring me in and then push me away almost simultaneously. how the hell am i supposed to know what is real? one minute i'm important, the other i'm expendable. make me feel like number 1 sometimes, and then number 57 others. why?
bs.
why am i the one who always cares too much or is interested too much? why is it me who is always wondering what's going on or how everything is going? I'm sick of giving and giving and getting nothing back. except sporadically. i'm sick of the on and off concern.
don't bring me in and then push me away almost simultaneously. how the hell am i supposed to know what is real? one minute i'm important, the other i'm expendable. make me feel like number 1 sometimes, and then number 57 others. why?
bs.