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people laugh at us because we always say "i love you" at the end of every phone conversation. they say, "dont you see each other everyday?" yes. what's you're point? the way i see it is, and this might be a lil morbid, but hey, should something happen, at least we could say there was that last "i love you." and how often in life do you feel that strongly? i mean how many times do you REALLY love someone. it doesnt happen everyday, so i like to celebrate each and every day. gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay, i'm okay with that.
soooo, im taking summer classes. and they finish in two weeks. and i'm kind of scared of what happens afterwards. I mean, I've been going to College Park, every week for the past 4 years. I "graduated" and am completing elective credits, but seriously, what am I going to do without CP? I hate it, I hate driving out there, I hate going to class. But, I hate the unknown. Or the "known" of I have to work, for the rest of my life. There's no summer break and fall to look forward to. It's going to be very mundane, repetitive, and just plain boring. There's no, "i dont feel like going to work today." There's no fake doctor's note I can bring in to excuse my lax behavior towards responsibility. How frightning? And can we discuss I don't have that boring, repetitive job in the first place? I'm at Crate, but not for long if I can help it. I absolutely hate it nowadays. I dislike my manager and the way she runs things greatly. I hate how she pretends to be friends with me, or want to be friends with me. yes, I'm popular at work, there's no one that outright hates me or treats me bad, and I think she's jealous of the fact I have friends and she doesnt and I refuse to be friends with her. She's 25, she's got a business management degree from Towson, she lives at home. She's pretty but has a huge body that doesnt match her face (mean, true, but whatev, it is what it is). And anytime we're near one another, she'll try to start conversation, and in a weird, fakish tone. Like, "how are youuu, how are things?" I'm very curt when I answer, "fine, good." and I walk away. And usually I'll walk away to find someone else and divulge every detail of life that has occurred since the last time I saw this person. There are people there I will miss so much when I leave. They have been true, sincere, incredible friends for the past four years. And they've given me so much advice on how to live/enjoy life. They're all older than me, most old enough to be my parents and we don't feel awkward with one another, they say I'm mature and just plain awesome for being my age. They avoid hanging out with people older than me, say 25-30, because those people aren't stable and confident in themselves and it shows, Jackie, the manager being one of them. Errrrr, she really boils my blood. She tries to be your friend and two minutes later is on your back about something stupid. She's so picky and finicky and just plain SUCKS. And its not because she's a woman, I've had a woman manager before her, who was PREGNANT, and was awesome, Jackie is just not confident in herself or in her ability to be a manager and it shows and I dont feel like dealing with her psychological issues, theres a reason I didn't study to be a shrink, I dont care enough about other people's garbage to fix it for them.
wow. i've just complained, a lot. but wait, there's more!
sooo we went to the beach with boyfriend's brother's gf (my future sister in law, if that makes it easier, not that they are engaged, cause they're not, haha). Her family has a condo in OC. And their friends came too. So it was three couples. I felt like I was in a retirement home. I was surrounded by young people who were boring as F*CK! First of all, lying on the sand, i got excited about going to the boardwalk and eating tons of bad, beach food, cause what else do you do at the beach besides eat funnel cake, fries and caramel popcorn? And they're like yeah! we'll go tomorrow...what??? why did i have to wait till the next day to go?? needless to say, bf and i went by ourselves bc bf's friend ended up at OC the same day so we went to hang out with her. While sitting in the condo waiting for lunch, mind you, every meal was prepared in efforts to save money....(gag) dude, why cant go out for pizza and beer and be YOUNG?! anyways, waiting for lunch, (pasta was served three times, three different ways during the same of two nights) everyone was reading a book, I was working on two essays I had to turn in on Monday. I was like...what IS this?? I just, I dont know. See what I mean, my "older" friends from work, party harder than these people. I've gone to happy hour many a time with people with kids. i mean seriously folks, wow. i thought bf and i were boring, but no. it gets worse. but whatev i guess, to each his own.
soooo, im taking summer classes. and they finish in two weeks. and i'm kind of scared of what happens afterwards. I mean, I've been going to College Park, every week for the past 4 years. I "graduated" and am completing elective credits, but seriously, what am I going to do without CP? I hate it, I hate driving out there, I hate going to class. But, I hate the unknown. Or the "known" of I have to work, for the rest of my life. There's no summer break and fall to look forward to. It's going to be very mundane, repetitive, and just plain boring. There's no, "i dont feel like going to work today." There's no fake doctor's note I can bring in to excuse my lax behavior towards responsibility. How frightning? And can we discuss I don't have that boring, repetitive job in the first place? I'm at Crate, but not for long if I can help it. I absolutely hate it nowadays. I dislike my manager and the way she runs things greatly. I hate how she pretends to be friends with me, or want to be friends with me. yes, I'm popular at work, there's no one that outright hates me or treats me bad, and I think she's jealous of the fact I have friends and she doesnt and I refuse to be friends with her. She's 25, she's got a business management degree from Towson, she lives at home. She's pretty but has a huge body that doesnt match her face (mean, true, but whatev, it is what it is). And anytime we're near one another, she'll try to start conversation, and in a weird, fakish tone. Like, "how are youuu, how are things?" I'm very curt when I answer, "fine, good." and I walk away. And usually I'll walk away to find someone else and divulge every detail of life that has occurred since the last time I saw this person. There are people there I will miss so much when I leave. They have been true, sincere, incredible friends for the past four years. And they've given me so much advice on how to live/enjoy life. They're all older than me, most old enough to be my parents and we don't feel awkward with one another, they say I'm mature and just plain awesome for being my age. They avoid hanging out with people older than me, say 25-30, because those people aren't stable and confident in themselves and it shows, Jackie, the manager being one of them. Errrrr, she really boils my blood. She tries to be your friend and two minutes later is on your back about something stupid. She's so picky and finicky and just plain SUCKS. And its not because she's a woman, I've had a woman manager before her, who was PREGNANT, and was awesome, Jackie is just not confident in herself or in her ability to be a manager and it shows and I dont feel like dealing with her psychological issues, theres a reason I didn't study to be a shrink, I dont care enough about other people's garbage to fix it for them.
wow. i've just complained, a lot. but wait, there's more!
sooo we went to the beach with boyfriend's brother's gf (my future sister in law, if that makes it easier, not that they are engaged, cause they're not, haha). Her family has a condo in OC. And their friends came too. So it was three couples. I felt like I was in a retirement home. I was surrounded by young people who were boring as F*CK! First of all, lying on the sand, i got excited about going to the boardwalk and eating tons of bad, beach food, cause what else do you do at the beach besides eat funnel cake, fries and caramel popcorn? And they're like yeah! we'll go tomorrow...what??? why did i have to wait till the next day to go?? needless to say, bf and i went by ourselves bc bf's friend ended up at OC the same day so we went to hang out with her. While sitting in the condo waiting for lunch, mind you, every meal was prepared in efforts to save money....(gag) dude, why cant go out for pizza and beer and be YOUNG?! anyways, waiting for lunch, (pasta was served three times, three different ways during the same of two nights) everyone was reading a book, I was working on two essays I had to turn in on Monday. I was like...what IS this?? I just, I dont know. See what I mean, my "older" friends from work, party harder than these people. I've gone to happy hour many a time with people with kids. i mean seriously folks, wow. i thought bf and i were boring, but no. it gets worse. but whatev i guess, to each his own.