please don't let there be another oct19
i'd like to say "bye" and "see you later" but i won't allow them to pour out of my mouth. the last time i said, "feel better" the person died and i can't bear to have my words hold no meaning. why bother when chances are small. i might as well prepare for a family of tears. i tend to choke on words for loved ones. if i don't get the chance, i'll just write it down. i'm sorry for every time my temper rose with you. i'm sorry for every time i had mean thoughts. i'm sorry for not taking the time to learn all i could from you. i'm sorry for ever disappointing you. i'm sorry you might never hear this.