yeah..
lets see. spirit week assembly thingy. to many ppl try to show spirit and get over worked that it makes them look idiotic and stupid as all fuck. how dare they rip this down! I cant belive they did this. overboooooard. me and ryan as usual enjoyed our spirit asssembly, all 4 we sat next to each other. good memories.
memories.... ha.. guess that is what killed me today and almost made me break down. I suck. I look at the bright side alot infact always. and the bright side here hurts. I give props to trevor , hasho , meagan , and christie. they cheered me up sorta. its a bitch when you have something that means alot to you and proves you really care and show support, but at the sight of it, you just think, memories and laughter. blah. emo post!
the dance was good. I pimped, or rather got pimped. lots of cheering for the men when we did our thing. was so fun, wish we did it infront of the school.
after that got some cash, went to megs house. talked with her mom and what not. went off to a house of ppl I didnt know, felt very unwanted. then went off to coneys, still felt unwanted, like everything I said was a mistake. prolly was.. I would have stayed longer with them but I couldnt bear the fact I felt like a failure , idiot , loser , moron , dipshit , and all around dumbass. :( the only time I belive I was really happy today was prolly looking into megs eyes on the stage hoping we remember the last move. rest of the day was garbage..
wish I had the "spirit" you guys had or the coolness to fit in better.
all I have is a stupid ass quote I said to jerry in the car and said that was rather mean of me and not true. and I quote "like ryan said cant wait for college, we can get outa this school and ill see my school 10 years from now and the classmates and see how fucking useless they all became and amounted to jack shit". :( guess Im good at getting angry and saying dream bashing and future life shit I never meant..
gosh I suck.
I wanna go and root the girls on tomm, but... I feel unwanted.. :(
everyone needs to be wanted. I wish we all were.
well im out..
memories.... ha.. guess that is what killed me today and almost made me break down. I suck. I look at the bright side alot infact always. and the bright side here hurts. I give props to trevor , hasho , meagan , and christie. they cheered me up sorta. its a bitch when you have something that means alot to you and proves you really care and show support, but at the sight of it, you just think, memories and laughter. blah. emo post!
the dance was good. I pimped, or rather got pimped. lots of cheering for the men when we did our thing. was so fun, wish we did it infront of the school.
after that got some cash, went to megs house. talked with her mom and what not. went off to a house of ppl I didnt know, felt very unwanted. then went off to coneys, still felt unwanted, like everything I said was a mistake. prolly was.. I would have stayed longer with them but I couldnt bear the fact I felt like a failure , idiot , loser , moron , dipshit , and all around dumbass. :( the only time I belive I was really happy today was prolly looking into megs eyes on the stage hoping we remember the last move. rest of the day was garbage..
wish I had the "spirit" you guys had or the coolness to fit in better.
all I have is a stupid ass quote I said to jerry in the car and said that was rather mean of me and not true. and I quote "like ryan said cant wait for college, we can get outa this school and ill see my school 10 years from now and the classmates and see how fucking useless they all became and amounted to jack shit". :( guess Im good at getting angry and saying dream bashing and future life shit I never meant..
gosh I suck.
I wanna go and root the girls on tomm, but... I feel unwanted.. :(
everyone needs to be wanted. I wish we all were.
well im out..