Today
Why has it taken me so long to get back here....probably because it feels like more has happened to me in the past week than the past year...pranged my car and wrote it off (so sad to see my baby being towed away after all these years... now slumming it on the peasant carrier (that can't go on for long!)
But the real kicker...the dreaded 'C' is back and with it more anxiety, worries, stresses and decisions, decisions, decisions. I find typing about it is therapeutic somehow and it kind of eases the sick feeling I've had in my stomach all day.
How strong can I be? I don't feel like I can cope as well as I did last time but know that whatever my decision, ultimately I'm the one that has to live with it....trying hard not to allow myself into being guilted into making the wrong choice.
So I'm going to approach this thing logically, weigh up the pros and cons, the options and likely outcomes of choosing one over the other, check out blogs and research websites like never before...
...but most importantly right now,,, is normality, not just existing or going through the motions but living my life just as freely as I did 24 hours ago before I was told the news...looking for a replacement car,,, looking forward to a good summer (one can hope) and progressing with my law degree...oh, and work of course!
But the real kicker...the dreaded 'C' is back and with it more anxiety, worries, stresses and decisions, decisions, decisions. I find typing about it is therapeutic somehow and it kind of eases the sick feeling I've had in my stomach all day.
How strong can I be? I don't feel like I can cope as well as I did last time but know that whatever my decision, ultimately I'm the one that has to live with it....trying hard not to allow myself into being guilted into making the wrong choice.
So I'm going to approach this thing logically, weigh up the pros and cons, the options and likely outcomes of choosing one over the other, check out blogs and research websites like never before...
...but most importantly right now,,, is normality, not just existing or going through the motions but living my life just as freely as I did 24 hours ago before I was told the news...looking for a replacement car,,, looking forward to a good summer (one can hope) and progressing with my law degree...oh, and work of course!