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So I don’t really know what to say, things have been lively? I guess you could say that lol
My mom is crazy, and now my grandma is in the hospital as of today. And I was in the hospital on Monday and it scared the shit out of me cause I’ve always been pretty hard on my body but never had any health concerns until now. I went by myself, also, because my mom said I wasn’t burning up but as soon as I got to the hospital they checked my temperature and I had a fever of 38.7. I hope I get better really soon, but it’s going be hard because of how low my white blood cells are. I have an appointment at HSC on tuesday so I'll hopefully learn everything I need to know in order to get better. Everyone is sick though, everyone!
I’ve been bitchy like crazy but it’s not like I snap on anyone I just have zero tolerance for stupidity. This girl in the public library accidently bumped me with her labtop case thingy but it kind of surprised me and then she just kept walking so I was like OUCH fuck lol and then she said sorry. I quit smoking cigarettes (and dope) on Sunday. I know it hasn’t been that long but I’ve had an emotional rollercoaster ride of week and I haven’t craved a smoke once. Plus it almost seems like my mom is smoking twice as much as she usually does AND in front of me on purpose. Whatever though, I think I’d probably choke to death if I smoked and it would just make me sicker and I’d get a head rush. The doc upped my dose to 30 mgs but I’m kind of thinking about going off of prozac or maybe going on something else. I don’t know what to think, I don’t know if its helping anymore. I definitely don't think I'm stable without antidepressants but right now I'm not stable with, so.
As soon as I get better I’m a) getting a job and b) getting my own apartment so I don't have to live with my mom anymore. I don’t know what made me think that things would change or be any different this time a round. But, I gave it a shot, its not the end of the world, but if I stay her much longer I‘ll go crazy. If worse comes to worse meaning I can‘t find an apartment I might move to Alberta with my Dad. Maybe I'd finish school first, I don't know though. I haven't really thought about it. I also have to start GOING but I’ve been so sick. I have a lot to catch up on so I need something to motivate me and this freezing fucking cold weather is NOT doing the trick.
Well anyways I better be going, I have to nap if I want to feel good enough to go to the Albert for Meaghans 18th birthday! Come down and buy her drinks. Tomorrow I'm going house sitting with Mel just to get the fuck out of here and I'm done my antibiotic so hopefully I'm better but I can already tell I won't be.