this says it all
i love him more than anything, and i have hurt him more than words can ever describe. i'm such an asshole and i don't even deserve him.
i want desperately to show you that this can work. i want to make it work. we wouldn't be doing this if we didn't want it to.
even as i sit here and write this i can't stop bawling. i sit and think about how much of an asshole i am and what i've done and i realize that i shouldn't be living. the whole situation is on me and i realize that and take responsibility. i want to prove to you that i am trust worthy and that i do love you. people change and they can make things better. that is what i am trying to do: prove that i'm a better person.
i love you more than i can ever put into words.
i want desperately to show you that this can work. i want to make it work. we wouldn't be doing this if we didn't want it to.
even as i sit here and write this i can't stop bawling. i sit and think about how much of an asshole i am and what i've done and i realize that i shouldn't be living. the whole situation is on me and i realize that and take responsibility. i want to prove to you that i am trust worthy and that i do love you. people change and they can make things better. that is what i am trying to do: prove that i'm a better person.
i love you more than i can ever put into words.