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-why must i meet the nicest boy two weeks before i leave for college...that is if i even go..and its not that i dont wanna live there..cuz believe me more than anythign inthe world do i wanna get at lynn...i jus dont feel ready...i was pumped..and now its like..."what if i dont make it? "..what if i let everyone down?"---im scared of failing at my goals...im scared of letting myself down...im scared that my dad mite have ben rite the whole time..even tho in the bak of my mind i wanna prove him wrong...if i was to ever accomplish anything in my life..it wud not b at all because of him**i wud do anything in my power to prove that man wrng..to prove to him..that im not the lozer daghter that he didnt help raise...!!! im jus so confuzed..but dont worry..me deciding wether or not to live in college has nothin to do with the nice boy...--its jus scary everytihng is jus so scary...the future...the past...even rite now..cuz it all fite together..ur past affects ur present which leads to ur future ((hopefully that made sence))---im so scared of becoming nothing..//im scared to even try at the thought of not succeding---everyone says.."o kara u can occomplish anything u set your mind to"--they dont no...they dont no that im the biggest procastianeter i nthe world..they dont no my study habbits...thety dont no my thoguhts and my opinions...and they obviosly cant predict what will happen in the future