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whatevs, im in a terrible mood, no way around that.
everything just seems to piss me off right now, i really hate when i get like this.
( fuck off..thatd be great! )
everything just seems to piss me off right now, i really hate when i get like this.
( fuck off..thatd be great! )
i know what you mean about everything, cause for a long, LONG time i had no bestfriend.
but i found sara, and we never became bestfriends until mid-grade-ten.
you've got a long way to go to meet someone who will be your one and only.
it's worth it, it really is.
i think it's better to do most of your growing up first anyways.
highschool changes people, the people you thought you'd be with forever drift and new people come into your life.
it's happened to all of us, but now it's just a more drastic change.
i know that i'm second best a just about everything i attempt.
i will never be the most pretty, or the most liked, or have the best grades, i'm not even going to TRY being like.. 20millionth best at sports, i'll never be the person everyone loves, i'll never have anything i really want.. but no body does.
it's taken be a very very long time to realize that everyone has insecurities, and the girls who get attention only get it cause they really really want it, and they try.
they've found SOME magic way to get it and it works.
they have issues too.
flirts have issues.
i have issues.
you have issues.
everyone has issues.
i find things in people i hate too, but i've also realized i do it to make myself look better.
when i make fun of people it's only to make myself look && feel better.
take sarah for example.
there was no valid reason for that.. i know i didn't like her at the time, but i had no right to do it.
i had no right to bring hurt into someone elses life, i had no right to make someone out to be a bad person just to boost my own selfconfidence.
lots of shit has happened in my life, and i guess it was all for the best.
i have some experience, and i have some advice that i HOPE is atleast a little helpful.
i don't want you to feel this way, because i know how much it sucks.
but i promise you, grade 10 WILL be much much better.
grade nine is a joke, no offence natalie aha, but it sucks.
you settle in, and contrary to popular belief your friendships are definately NOT based on grade nine.
most of the people im friends with now i didn't hang out with in grade nine.
just let everything happen, cause really.. everything DOES happen for a reason.
even if it sucks at the time, you'll look back and see how it helped you.
i'm going to shut up now because this is an extreeemeelly long comment.
but yeah, i love you <3
and feel better.
LOVE,
<3 chels
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