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my life is a mess. i have no idea what i want anymore. i have been drinking for 8 days straight now and tonight will obviously be 9. this is not really me. not that i don't love to party etc etc but i don't usually drink this much this frequently. and i have basically done nothing else. oh well, tonight will be the last night of this spree and i can get back to normalcy. like maybe going to work and doing something with my life. college is coming so soon. ahhh. i am speechless. i can't decide if i'm excited or not. i feel like i just really need to get out of here. away from this and all these people. i wish some people would just make up their minds. pick a way to feel and stick with it. i'm sick of situational bullshit. if you don't like me, then don't like me all the time and get this shit over with. and if we are friends, then act like we're friends in all situations, not just in the ones that you find convient for you. i have been on such an emotional rollercoaster since like january. its just one thing after another. i hope i can handle going away to school without have a major breakdown.