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i hope everybody is well, because i am.
last night said friend invited me over to her house to watch her and a few others roll. i turned her down. i dont' like turning down my friends and staying home, i really don't. but it would be boring to watch them be under the influence of something. it would of been annoying as well. then the drive up to louisville and the drive back. and the cold. and the fact that i just worked 8 hours down at store. no. not going to happen.
so i said no. and stayed home.
and guess what? i still alive today!
i'm tired of driving to new albany/louisville to see my friends. why can't they come down to corydon and see me? i mean, i know my house is boring and whatnot, but jesus christ, all my friends come to corydon for one reason or another (family/work). so why can't they stop and see me? why do i have to make time for them and drive out of my way to see them? i have a lot more on my plate than any of my friends. i mean, hell, i'm going to COLLEGE. none of my other friends ARE. they don't understand how time consuming college IS.
i wonder how long its going to take me to re-evaluate my life. i need to find my inner voice and stick to my word and stand up for myself and be a bitch. i need to say no. i need to do what i want to do. trust nobody and watch my fucking back because nobody else is.
i've turned bitter, but seriously, i'm happier now than i have been in a while.
last night said friend invited me over to her house to watch her and a few others roll. i turned her down. i dont' like turning down my friends and staying home, i really don't. but it would be boring to watch them be under the influence of something. it would of been annoying as well. then the drive up to louisville and the drive back. and the cold. and the fact that i just worked 8 hours down at store. no. not going to happen.
so i said no. and stayed home.
and guess what? i still alive today!
i'm tired of driving to new albany/louisville to see my friends. why can't they come down to corydon and see me? i mean, i know my house is boring and whatnot, but jesus christ, all my friends come to corydon for one reason or another (family/work). so why can't they stop and see me? why do i have to make time for them and drive out of my way to see them? i have a lot more on my plate than any of my friends. i mean, hell, i'm going to COLLEGE. none of my other friends ARE. they don't understand how time consuming college IS.
i wonder how long its going to take me to re-evaluate my life. i need to find my inner voice and stick to my word and stand up for myself and be a bitch. i need to say no. i need to do what i want to do. trust nobody and watch my fucking back because nobody else is.
i've turned bitter, but seriously, i'm happier now than i have been in a while.