so i have been thinking

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yes somewhere in all this work and the huge amount of energy that i have put into not thinking it has leaked through. I am stressed out but not overly, or should i say not as much as i should be. I am working, but not diligintly, or well not as much as i should. I am determined to start over, and get excited about this book and love it as much as everyone else will. I am excited to start making work again, work that makes me happy, work that means something to me. I need to do this book first, but i think i am getting my priorities in line. it is hard to make work that leaves you vulnerable when you are feeling so insecure. that i guess is where i have been at. I dont know now what my work is going to be about, i am a little done with flowers at the moment, the imagery isnt even that important. it is all about the process, loving every tedious painfull step of it. Maybe i will hang some of my mono prints in the works in progress show. Maybe i like mono prints more than i am willing admit. this post is very much a ramble and a little procrastination. I am working on the hardiness zone map for my book right now. Listening to my cd player in the basement. It is nice, to feel productive, to have deadlines for myself, now all i have to do is keep telling myself this... its going to be okay, you can get this all done, now stop procrastinating and do something.
ps. this is the best i have felt on a wednesday since school started. wednesdays are the new mondays
pps. the "determined" icon looks constipated...