I left the house today. I couldn't take it anymore so I came here to Wilmington where I can be alone with my thoughts, the only place that loves me back now. I don't feel like talking to Fred....I don't feel like seeing Fred...I just can't take this! I cried most of the way here, I have still watery eyes...geeze, I can't do this anymore. I can't just do this. I can't just love Fred...he keeps making me love him and then just like that, he brakes my heart. I don't want to divorce because it's sin. We're supposed to stay together till death do us part. I can't just imagine...what if I get pregnant. I don't want to but God has his ways and I trust that he'll do what's right. I pray that if I have a child that Fred wont be around. I don't want to take care of a child with him...I don't know why but to me, I just can't do it. I want to do it myself...*tears run down face* This music...uh...it just brakes my heart! I am listening to the A Walk To Remember soundtrack, and this song...
MANDY MOORE:
Ninety miles outside Chicago,
Can't stop drivin', I don't know why.
So many questions, I need an answer,
Two years of lay day still on my mind.
JONATHAN FOREMAN:
What ever happened to Amelia Earheart?
Who wrote the stars up in the sky?
Is true love just once in a lifetime?
BOTH:
Did the captain of the Titanic cry?
Someday we'll know...
(CHORUS 1)
MANDY:
If love can move a mountain!
BOTH:
Someday we'll know...
JONATHAN:
Why the sky is blue!
BOTH:
Someday we'll know...
Why I was meant for you!
MANDY:
Does anybody know the way to Atlantis?
JONATHAN:
Or what the wind says when she cries?
MANDY:
I'm speeding by the place where I met you,
(CHORUS 2)
BOTH:
For the ninety-seventh time tonight!
Someday we'll know...
MANDY:
If love can move a mountain!
BOTH:
Someday we'll know...
JONATHAN:
Why the sky is blue!
BOTH:
Someday we'll know...
Why I was meant for you!
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah!
Someday we'll know...
JONATHAN:
Why SAmpson loved Delilah!
BOTH:
Oneday I'll go...
MANDY:
Dancin' on the moon!
BOTH:
Someday we'll know...
That I was the one for you!
MANDY:
Bought a ticket to the end of the rainbow.
JONATHAN:
Watch the stars crash in the sea!
MANDY:
If I could ask God just one question,
BOTH:
Why aren't you here with me?
(repeat chorus 1)
(repeat chorus 2)
...just makes me just tear up so bad...I can't talk to anyone about this...I just can't trust anyone. I don't want to be like this forever...*tears up* I don't want to do this forever...I don't want to be this forever *wipes off tears with tissue*