Wow...i just want this semester to be over
Welcome to another edition of what is pringie thinking...
Well the month of May is almost over. I can't believe that half the year has almost gone by already. This semester has been a very trying one to say the least. It has actually proven pivotal to my development has an individual. I really had to do a lot of digging deep to get through all the trials that this past semester has presented me with, but I am on the home stretch!
Personally... I've never felt so isolated and alone in my life. I feel like that no one around me can be trusted and that the world is constantly pushing me to my limits. My own personal demons are becoming stronger everyday and its mentally stressing. Circumstances are causing me to want to become a monster, and each day I feel myself slipping. This past month alone has been extremely bad.
I am so poor I am on food stamps, some days I don't eat at all, my grades have suffered since the beginning of the semester because I didn't have money for materials for a month, some days I can't even go to class cause I don't have the means of getting to school, physically I am constantly weak because I work out every day, I sleep 2-3hrs a night, I have no real time to go out and do things with friends, and when I do no one is doing anything, I am drinking.. a lot sometimes. I am just carrying so much emotional pain I just won’t let it go. It serves as a constant reminder of how weak I became when I was with Donna. I don't know who I am anymore. The drive to never quit is there. I know that everything I worked so hard for will be for nothing if I quit now. Finally, my grandfather has less than 6 months to live, and my own parents seem to have about the same amount of time.
If I am being honest. Despite all that I said... I am still keeping my dreams alive at the cost of everything. There is so much more I have to say, but I have to study for a final so I’ll continue later.
Well the month of May is almost over. I can't believe that half the year has almost gone by already. This semester has been a very trying one to say the least. It has actually proven pivotal to my development has an individual. I really had to do a lot of digging deep to get through all the trials that this past semester has presented me with, but I am on the home stretch!
Personally... I've never felt so isolated and alone in my life. I feel like that no one around me can be trusted and that the world is constantly pushing me to my limits. My own personal demons are becoming stronger everyday and its mentally stressing. Circumstances are causing me to want to become a monster, and each day I feel myself slipping. This past month alone has been extremely bad.
I am so poor I am on food stamps, some days I don't eat at all, my grades have suffered since the beginning of the semester because I didn't have money for materials for a month, some days I can't even go to class cause I don't have the means of getting to school, physically I am constantly weak because I work out every day, I sleep 2-3hrs a night, I have no real time to go out and do things with friends, and when I do no one is doing anything, I am drinking.. a lot sometimes. I am just carrying so much emotional pain I just won’t let it go. It serves as a constant reminder of how weak I became when I was with Donna. I don't know who I am anymore. The drive to never quit is there. I know that everything I worked so hard for will be for nothing if I quit now. Finally, my grandfather has less than 6 months to live, and my own parents seem to have about the same amount of time.
If I am being honest. Despite all that I said... I am still keeping my dreams alive at the cost of everything. There is so much more I have to say, but I have to study for a final so I’ll continue later.