Unoriginal
Warning: This post contains bitching. Reader discretion is advised.
I've got a list of things I am not happy about:
1) Work. At the moment, holidays are coming up. So all of a sudden there is a gigantic rush to have all these meetings to prepare ourselves. Which is fine, except I definitely asked for this weekend semi-off so I can hang out with one of my dearest friends. Well I can't get off of work so I end up screwing her over hard core and it makes me look like a piece of shit because I make all these promises and even have her move a date around for me, and I still can't go. Fan-fucking-tastic.
2) Being used. I have a disorder where I need to be needed. However, I also have a strong bullshit meter that misfires often. So needless to say when someone is pretending to need me and really doesn't, I feel like I'm being taken advantage of and have the urge to just write him or her out of my life. And I hate it. But it's not like I can confront the users because, well let's face it, my need to be needed basically sets me up to be on the receiving end of the philosophy "Shut up and take it." So now I'm stuck catering to people who don't need me, but keep me around because I make things easier. Some people call that friendship, I guess, but I call it bullshit.
3) Not having anything to wear. I literally look into my 2 dressers and a whole closet and see nothing that looks good. It's ridiculous. I'm going to start making myself wear plain colored t-shirts in order to take my high and mighty fashion attitude down a notch.
4) And I haven't gone to a meeting in 4 weeks. So naturally, I'm disgusting.
5) And breaking out.
6) And haven't applied to any law schools because I can't put together a decent personal statement because I feel shitty about myself at the moment, mostly because I haven't applied to law school.
And I have to go to work soon. So I have to end my rant.
I've got a list of things I am not happy about:
1) Work. At the moment, holidays are coming up. So all of a sudden there is a gigantic rush to have all these meetings to prepare ourselves. Which is fine, except I definitely asked for this weekend semi-off so I can hang out with one of my dearest friends. Well I can't get off of work so I end up screwing her over hard core and it makes me look like a piece of shit because I make all these promises and even have her move a date around for me, and I still can't go. Fan-fucking-tastic.
2) Being used. I have a disorder where I need to be needed. However, I also have a strong bullshit meter that misfires often. So needless to say when someone is pretending to need me and really doesn't, I feel like I'm being taken advantage of and have the urge to just write him or her out of my life. And I hate it. But it's not like I can confront the users because, well let's face it, my need to be needed basically sets me up to be on the receiving end of the philosophy "Shut up and take it." So now I'm stuck catering to people who don't need me, but keep me around because I make things easier. Some people call that friendship, I guess, but I call it bullshit.
3) Not having anything to wear. I literally look into my 2 dressers and a whole closet and see nothing that looks good. It's ridiculous. I'm going to start making myself wear plain colored t-shirts in order to take my high and mighty fashion attitude down a notch.
4) And I haven't gone to a meeting in 4 weeks. So naturally, I'm disgusting.
5) And breaking out.
6) And haven't applied to any law schools because I can't put together a decent personal statement because I feel shitty about myself at the moment, mostly because I haven't applied to law school.
And I have to go to work soon. So I have to end my rant.