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So I'm bored...got this from Sara Heimer and thought i might do it. Actually I'm really not bored, but I'm avoiding doing whatever I'm supposed to be doing right now...making dinner, getting by brothers out of the bathroom, exercising...anything but this really but I'll just be real quick with it.
I miss school, but NOT the STRESS!!! I was crying to Karen the other day that I just hate the stress at school, especially around finals (my roommate's amazing...I never cry but I was crying that day and she was there to help me through it). I think that is part of what got my sick...all the stress that piled up was so much that it broke my immune system (i know the disease was very catching, but I think that the immune system played a crucial part for me). Life is not so stressful here, just business all around me. I don't really have responsibilities that depend on my future here (well maybe spiritually), but that just makes everything so much more relaxing! I could actually help my mom out today. I didn't really get to help anyone last week because I was going so stinkin crazy...I hate it when it comes down to that! I am a helper personality type and when I'm not able to help people it rips my heart out. Humhumhum...this is me, I don't know why I'm sharing, but that's what this journal is for!
1 MINUTE AGO: I was reading livejournal entries
1 HOUR AGO: baking with mom
1 DAY AGO: ridin in the car with Truely
1 YEAR AGO: I was with my Whitney...I miss her so
I LOVE: JESUS SOOO MUCH!!!
I HATE: being stressed out (well and sick at the same time)
I FEAR: not finding where God wants me in life; being lost (like in a physical place)
I FEEL: like doing something, but at the same time just sitting here all night
I HIDE: my tears
I DRIVE: my daddy's car when I'm home
I MISS: my old cat and everyone from school and Audrey and Steph
I LEARN: when I think to put down my pride enough to learn
I NEED: a place to pray
I THINK: I am learning a lot about myself today
FIRSTS..
First screen name: i don't remember...something wierd like funnysmilie
First piercing: ears.
First credit card: never really had a real one...just debit
First enemy: Ummm yeah...I think that started for me in High School because I never had to confront people in middle school...definately did not get along with this girl on the soccer team
First musician you remember hearing: are you kidding me? who knows the answer to this question?
LASTS..
Last big car ride: yesturday.
Last kiss: humm I'll keep you guessing about his one
Last movie seen: gazillions...that's like all I do one weekends it seems
Last food consumed: banana bread muffins
Last phone call: answering the phone is funny at my house...the person it's for is either never here or isn't easily accessible (ask Karen!)
Last CD played: music in Truely's car - my fav was Six Pence (she loves them too! heehee)
Last beverage: water
Last time scolded: i think from one of my hh sisters....but I won't give it much time here at home until it happens
SHORT ANSWER..
I AM: a girl
I WANT: something worth putting my time into this break
I HAVE: lots of LOUD siblings!!!! ECCCKKKK
I WISH: I could have school and home in the same environment (wait scratch that!) Actually I wish I could FLY!
I WONDER: what's really in the food at the cafe sometimes
I ALWAYS: get too LOUD!
I DANCE: with my sisters
I SING: in the shower (yes I'm one of those!)
I CRY: only when I don't really care who's there or i'm alone
I LAUGH: whenever I can!
I WRITE: when I have to
I WIN: when i make people laugh
I LOSE: in responsibility and saying "no"
I SHOULD: be doing other things
I CONFUSE: myself
FAVORITES..
NUMBER: 15
COLOR(S): blue
DAYS: don't have one
MONTH: May
SONG(S): this week: you're a mean one mr grinch
SEASON: Christmas!!!
DRINK: agua
IN THE LAST 2 DAYS, HAVE YOU...
CRIED? To my roommate and I almost did on the phone to both my parents separate times...it's been a sad week
HELPED SOMEONE? in akward ways...moved Tricia's stuff into my room...tried to help and comfort my roomie (I wasn't very good at it)
GONE TO THE MOVIES? nope..will soon
WRITTEN A REAL LETTER: nope
TALKED TO AN EX? No.
MISSED AN EX?: No.
WRITTEN IN A DIARY?: Yes.
HAD A SERIOUS TALK?: Yes.
HUGGED SOMEONE?: Yes...all my family and ppl from school
YELLED AT SOMEONE?: yeah...my sibs