a special time when puns about me dropping out don't apply
ok... so here's my life as it stands at this very moment...
first week of september i go back to london... i got into "the harvard of fashion schools" or something... very proud of myself... very ready to get the FUCK out.
- my dad said he was going to make it so i didn't have to work while i was in school...which is, well, kind of a miracle. it's been a long time since i haven't had to totally work my ass off. so i'll get to totally focus on school... and just kind of being me for a while... amazing.
i have really really good friends... it's so weird to be able to hang out with people that just totally get every part of you. people who you can be totally ridiculous with and thats what they love about you. people who compliment you when they know you need it. people who will go out of their way to make you laugh b/c your having a really shitty day. people who are into art and deep thinking and having fun at bars while dancing...all good things that i really needed to be surrounded by while i was home. i'm sooo happy i found them. i would like to add that even though some people i don't spend as much time with anymore for various reasons - you guys are still my people...i still love you... you guys were always there even before this new found zen-ness. and for that i am beyond appreciative.
i went and saw jill scott the other night with my friend kim who by the way is pretty much one of the funniest people i've ever met. it was amazing... i've never been so into a performance in my entire life.
as far as me and my step-dad go... thats pretty much a non-relationship - weird to say but i think i finally cut him out successfully... and i think he gets why this time.
my relationship with my dad is getting to be almost a father-daughter type deal...which is really cool, and awkward. but i know he really cares and really wants to know me and be in my life so yeah... nothing but good can come from it.
i think in synopsis... i know myself and i know what i need and what i don't... i think i'm just at peace with all the bad things that have happened in my life...which is something i thought i would never say
love and guts xo
guels
first week of september i go back to london... i got into "the harvard of fashion schools" or something... very proud of myself... very ready to get the FUCK out.
- my dad said he was going to make it so i didn't have to work while i was in school...which is, well, kind of a miracle. it's been a long time since i haven't had to totally work my ass off. so i'll get to totally focus on school... and just kind of being me for a while... amazing.
i have really really good friends... it's so weird to be able to hang out with people that just totally get every part of you. people who you can be totally ridiculous with and thats what they love about you. people who compliment you when they know you need it. people who will go out of their way to make you laugh b/c your having a really shitty day. people who are into art and deep thinking and having fun at bars while dancing...all good things that i really needed to be surrounded by while i was home. i'm sooo happy i found them. i would like to add that even though some people i don't spend as much time with anymore for various reasons - you guys are still my people...i still love you... you guys were always there even before this new found zen-ness. and for that i am beyond appreciative.
i went and saw jill scott the other night with my friend kim who by the way is pretty much one of the funniest people i've ever met. it was amazing... i've never been so into a performance in my entire life.
as far as me and my step-dad go... thats pretty much a non-relationship - weird to say but i think i finally cut him out successfully... and i think he gets why this time.
my relationship with my dad is getting to be almost a father-daughter type deal...which is really cool, and awkward. but i know he really cares and really wants to know me and be in my life so yeah... nothing but good can come from it.
i think in synopsis... i know myself and i know what i need and what i don't... i think i'm just at peace with all the bad things that have happened in my life...which is something i thought i would never say
love and guts xo
guels