it's late
things are weird with me right now. I think i got pretty thrown off by the events of the last week. Last Wednesday I was at home with Justin and got online to check myspace and had received a message from his friend from high school, Kayla, asking when Will's dad's funeral would be. Will is a good friend of ours that Justin has known since he was 3. This was all very confusing as we had not heard from Will in awhile and had no clue what Kayla was talking about. It took about an hour to get ahold of his fiancee, Jaclyn, and find out that his dad had in fact passed away the day before and that they had just arrived in Syracuse that day. The worst part of it all was the way he died. His dad hung himself while at work. And Will in Jaclyn had been living in L.A. since June so Will had not seen his dad since moving away. We found out what was going on and then basically threw clothes in a suitcase and made sure the pets were all set with food and water and then took off for Syracuse. It was a long weekend and Will is a mess of course, but it was so nice to see everyone again. Too bad it was under the worst situation possible. I did find out an interesting tidbit though.
Ok, Justin's other best friend is Kiel (pronounced Kyle) and he has hating me since first meeting me for whatever reason and was an absolute ass to me up until he started dating Petek and she liked me. They're married now by the way. Anyhow... apparently he never stopped hating me, but has only told Justin this and why. He thinks I'm a gold digger who is only interested in Justin because he's going to be a doctor one day. Justin told me this over the weekend. Since I found out, I have noticed 3 different comments Kiel has directed at me that make me see that he really does believe that. I shouldn't let it bother me I guess because it really is ridiculous and paranoid of him to think and why should I care what he thinks anyhow. But... I can't help it. I mean... really? A gold digger? For God's sake, I wish he HADN'T chosen to be a doctor! Trying to be in a relationship with someone who's in med school sucks! And he's miserable all the time. Sometimes I wish I could go back in time and talk him out of it, but I know that wouldn't have worked anyhow and that everything happens for a reason. But still... like I really give a shit about money. Its only importance to me is that you need it to live. I hate money. I would much rather live on an island and just trade things, lol. Ugh, it's just so frustrating. Plus his wife and I became better friends this weekend and she wants me to come stay with them in Chicago some weekend and I really just can't be around him without Justin because I know he hates me and he can be such an ass.
On the bright side... Justin and I discussed the future a good bit on our drive home from Syracuse last night. We had already talked about maybe getting engaged some time next summer before, but now we're also talking about good wedding times and it seems like we've both agreed on sometime in May of 2009. That's not that far away! So exciting :) Only... an everyday wedding these days seems to cost more than $15,000.00 which is so completely ridiculous! Ugh. And I found out that Justin doesn't want to put off having children very long either... like after a year of marriage he wants to get started. That's like 3 years away... but I guess I'll be ready by then. At least I hope so, lol.
Ok, Justin's other best friend is Kiel (pronounced Kyle) and he has hating me since first meeting me for whatever reason and was an absolute ass to me up until he started dating Petek and she liked me. They're married now by the way. Anyhow... apparently he never stopped hating me, but has only told Justin this and why. He thinks I'm a gold digger who is only interested in Justin because he's going to be a doctor one day. Justin told me this over the weekend. Since I found out, I have noticed 3 different comments Kiel has directed at me that make me see that he really does believe that. I shouldn't let it bother me I guess because it really is ridiculous and paranoid of him to think and why should I care what he thinks anyhow. But... I can't help it. I mean... really? A gold digger? For God's sake, I wish he HADN'T chosen to be a doctor! Trying to be in a relationship with someone who's in med school sucks! And he's miserable all the time. Sometimes I wish I could go back in time and talk him out of it, but I know that wouldn't have worked anyhow and that everything happens for a reason. But still... like I really give a shit about money. Its only importance to me is that you need it to live. I hate money. I would much rather live on an island and just trade things, lol. Ugh, it's just so frustrating. Plus his wife and I became better friends this weekend and she wants me to come stay with them in Chicago some weekend and I really just can't be around him without Justin because I know he hates me and he can be such an ass.
On the bright side... Justin and I discussed the future a good bit on our drive home from Syracuse last night. We had already talked about maybe getting engaged some time next summer before, but now we're also talking about good wedding times and it seems like we've both agreed on sometime in May of 2009. That's not that far away! So exciting :) Only... an everyday wedding these days seems to cost more than $15,000.00 which is so completely ridiculous! Ugh. And I found out that Justin doesn't want to put off having children very long either... like after a year of marriage he wants to get started. That's like 3 years away... but I guess I'll be ready by then. At least I hope so, lol.