ramble ramble ramble
Soooo it's been a ridiculously long time (as always...) and I'm not going to even attempt to try to recap the last two (mostly sucky) months. Long story short, I lost my Nana on January 20th, and everything else has been kinda tough since then but I know it will get better eventually. For now I'm just reallllllly looking forward to spring break, to have some time to relax and be home with my family and my friends, all of whom I miss bunches. I truly missed high school for the first time the other day. Twice in one day, actually!! The first time was in french class, and as much as I adore my french professor here, I realized how ridiculously awesome Ialenti's class was for two years. True, I didn't learn a whole lot of french ("je ne parle pas francais!") but it was a good time. The second time was at lunch with Jess, when we realized we were both show choir geeks in high school. Awww, show choir. I have to say, I miss show choir every bit as much as I thought I would. Go ahead, laugh!! :) It makes me laugh too. I don't miss rehearsals really and I definately don't miss sectionals, but I do miss having that tight group of people, and I miss performing more than anything. I especially miss my pretty sequined dress...haha. I missed all the auditions for this semester's shows while I was home with my Nana, and I misssssssss singing dancing and acting like crazy. Obviously Jess and I are both going to bring back videos from spring break so we can see each other's groups :) Once a show choir geek, always a show choir geek.
Hmm, other things. Nothing of interest really, I just kinda felt like writing tonight. The gym was farrrr too crowded tonight, which was unusual for a Thursday...annoying. Came back here to do some Pilates in my room instead. Working out has helped my mood a lot...it's been a really good distraction/tension reliever if nothing else.
Another thing that's helped at times is music. I made myself a playlist which is actually titled "Optimistic Playlist!! YAY!!" True story. Depends on the day though. Some days it totally helps and I'm like yeahhh good music good mood, let's go!! Other days every song in the world can make me cry for one reason or another...but that's ok. I'm a little bit obsessed with my iPod. Just a little bit. Also, my iPod is silver and Caroline's is pink and we're going to have an iPod wedding.
I'M GETTING A GOLDFISH!!!!!!!
My roommate's synchro team is selling them for a fundraiser...how cool is that?? I'm thinking I'll name him Dexter. That's my random name of choice these days for some reason...
It's snowing like carazy!! When I left the gym it was just starting, now the ground is covered. I wonder if it will be enough to cancel classes for tomorrow...doubt it. Wishful thinking. I lost my T pass, and tomorrow for bio we have a lab in the science building clear across campus...a PLANKTON lab. No better way to start the weekend than with a 2 mile walk through the streets of Boston (i.e. being SPLASHED) in the snow to study...plankton. Better break out the optimistic CD for that one. :)
I've become kinda obsessed with music lyrics lately and have the urge to post a bajillion of my favorites on here...but I'll restrain myself, cuz...why do that? Haha. I'm just a nut. In any case, here's my "we WILL have a good day today dammit" playlist for your enjoyment...
Affirmation - Savage Garden
American Dreams Theme Song - Emerson Hart
Pretty Good Day - don't even know who it's by
Power of Love - Huey Lewis
God is a DJ - Pink
No Such Thing - John Mayer
The Middle - Jimmy Eat World
The Remedy - Jason Mraz
It's My Life - Bon Jovi
Crazy in Love - Beyonce (could I ever get sick of this song? I don't think so)
You and Me Song - The Wannadies
Ants Go Marching - Dave Matthews Band
Somewhere Beyond the Sea - Bobby Darin
Wouldn't it Be Nice - The Beach Boys
It's About Time - John Denver
Galileo - The Indigo Girls
She's in Love with the Boy - Trisha Yearwood
Unbroken - Tim McGraw
Mayberry - Rascall Flatts
Blessed - Martina McBride
I Go Back - Kenny Chesney
Somebody Like You - Keith Urban
Who Wouldn't Wanna Be Me - Keith Urban
I Want to Live - Josh Gracin
Standing Outside the Fire - Garth Brooks
If My Heart Had Wings - Faith Hill
Summer of 69 - Bryan Adams
Only the Good Die Young - Billy Joel
A pretty good mix, I think. Some are pretty random, I just like them a lot and it peps me up. Whatever works, right?
I had some deep things to say earlier, but now I forget. Don't worry - not too deep. :) Ooo, I remember. I was reading Tao Te Ching this morning...books like that make me want to take Core forever. Then I go to Core lecture, and I want to drop Core. Immediately. It's too bad, cuz we read some really awesome stuff in there. I actually don't want to sell back my books, cuz I've highlighted all my favorite quotes and stuff...it's weird. It kinda makes me want to go back and reread all the stuff I just used SparkNotes for in high school, to see if those books were as good as some of the Core books are. Some of my favorite Tao quotes (from completely unrelated sections of the book:
"Therefore, knowing that enough is enough
is always Enough."
"People commonly ruin their work
When they are near success.
Proceed at the end as at the beginning
And your work won't be ruined."
"A tree too big to embrace
is born from a sleder shoot.
A nine-story tower
rises from a pile of earth.
A thousand-mile journey
begins with a single step."
"Those who know don't talk,
Those who talk don't know."
"To collect, first scatter.
To weaken, first strengthen.
To abolish, first establish.
To conclude, first initiate.
This is called subtle illumination.
Shih wei wei ming << what??
Soft and weak overcome stiff and strong.
Fish cannot escape the deep pool.
A country's sharpest weapons
Cannot be displayed."
"Conquering others takes force.
Conquering yourself is true strength."
Then we've got some Confucius...ohhh man...
"I for my part am not one of those who have innate knowledge. I am simply one who loves the past and who is diligent in investigating it."
"The wise delights in water, but the Good man delights in mountains. For the wise move; but the Good stay still. The wise are happy; but the Good, secure."
Whoaaaaaa...intense. That first Confucius one just kind of jumped out at me...I read these books and think, wow, I don't think I have any deep thoughts like that. Don't you ever wonder that, if you have ever had an original thought in your life? Is there anything left to think up? Maybe I'm just a nut, but sometimes I worry about that, that I have nothing to contribue to the world, no "innate knowledge." But I genuinely do love the past, and I think that's why it's pretty much inevitable that I'm going to be a history major. I guess that seems kind of wimpy...I have no original thoughts, so I'll spend my life looking up smart things other people did and said. But I think that's what's cool about history, I feel like there still ARE things to be discovered, there's always another point of view for everything that's happened, there's always another source to be considered...and you can write your own thoughts about it. << huuuuge geek, right here. But seriously, that quote is pretty cool. I love the second one too, just cuz it's...pretty? True? I don't know...but I like it. I guess that what sucks about Core, I love this stuff, I love all these works and the discussion part of it and even a lot of the writing assignments, but the way it's all taught, and the way it's all squished in...it really takes the enjoyment out of it. And don't even get me started on the whole crap about having to finish out the year or not get WR100 credit...blahhh. Stupid Core, awesome books. :)
EXTREMELY excited about my bio paper!! Not even kidding. I'm writing it about animal behavior and marine mammal training...can I make a smiley face big enough? I don't think so. Love it!! :)
Life plan: I am going to read all these fabulous books and become enlightened and peaceful and wonderful. Then I am going to tame free willy and swim with dolphins for as long as my little heart desires, and in my spare time, I will travel the world and read every history book I can get my hands on. Finally, I will write a fabulously world-view changing book about the history of Something Awesome (TBA). Also, I will have 24 kids and work at Disney World for at least a few years.
Sound good? Ok, excellent. Guess I gotta graduate from college first with a degree in God Only Knows What. On that note...time to type up my references for my bio paper...let it snow let it snow let it snow!! :)
Hmm, other things. Nothing of interest really, I just kinda felt like writing tonight. The gym was farrrr too crowded tonight, which was unusual for a Thursday...annoying. Came back here to do some Pilates in my room instead. Working out has helped my mood a lot...it's been a really good distraction/tension reliever if nothing else.
Another thing that's helped at times is music. I made myself a playlist which is actually titled "Optimistic Playlist!! YAY!!" True story. Depends on the day though. Some days it totally helps and I'm like yeahhh good music good mood, let's go!! Other days every song in the world can make me cry for one reason or another...but that's ok. I'm a little bit obsessed with my iPod. Just a little bit. Also, my iPod is silver and Caroline's is pink and we're going to have an iPod wedding.
I'M GETTING A GOLDFISH!!!!!!!
My roommate's synchro team is selling them for a fundraiser...how cool is that?? I'm thinking I'll name him Dexter. That's my random name of choice these days for some reason...
It's snowing like carazy!! When I left the gym it was just starting, now the ground is covered. I wonder if it will be enough to cancel classes for tomorrow...doubt it. Wishful thinking. I lost my T pass, and tomorrow for bio we have a lab in the science building clear across campus...a PLANKTON lab. No better way to start the weekend than with a 2 mile walk through the streets of Boston (i.e. being SPLASHED) in the snow to study...plankton. Better break out the optimistic CD for that one. :)
I've become kinda obsessed with music lyrics lately and have the urge to post a bajillion of my favorites on here...but I'll restrain myself, cuz...why do that? Haha. I'm just a nut. In any case, here's my "we WILL have a good day today dammit" playlist for your enjoyment...
Affirmation - Savage Garden
American Dreams Theme Song - Emerson Hart
Pretty Good Day - don't even know who it's by
Power of Love - Huey Lewis
God is a DJ - Pink
No Such Thing - John Mayer
The Middle - Jimmy Eat World
The Remedy - Jason Mraz
It's My Life - Bon Jovi
Crazy in Love - Beyonce (could I ever get sick of this song? I don't think so)
You and Me Song - The Wannadies
Ants Go Marching - Dave Matthews Band
Somewhere Beyond the Sea - Bobby Darin
Wouldn't it Be Nice - The Beach Boys
It's About Time - John Denver
Galileo - The Indigo Girls
She's in Love with the Boy - Trisha Yearwood
Unbroken - Tim McGraw
Mayberry - Rascall Flatts
Blessed - Martina McBride
I Go Back - Kenny Chesney
Somebody Like You - Keith Urban
Who Wouldn't Wanna Be Me - Keith Urban
I Want to Live - Josh Gracin
Standing Outside the Fire - Garth Brooks
If My Heart Had Wings - Faith Hill
Summer of 69 - Bryan Adams
Only the Good Die Young - Billy Joel
A pretty good mix, I think. Some are pretty random, I just like them a lot and it peps me up. Whatever works, right?
I had some deep things to say earlier, but now I forget. Don't worry - not too deep. :) Ooo, I remember. I was reading Tao Te Ching this morning...books like that make me want to take Core forever. Then I go to Core lecture, and I want to drop Core. Immediately. It's too bad, cuz we read some really awesome stuff in there. I actually don't want to sell back my books, cuz I've highlighted all my favorite quotes and stuff...it's weird. It kinda makes me want to go back and reread all the stuff I just used SparkNotes for in high school, to see if those books were as good as some of the Core books are. Some of my favorite Tao quotes (from completely unrelated sections of the book:
"Therefore, knowing that enough is enough
is always Enough."
"People commonly ruin their work
When they are near success.
Proceed at the end as at the beginning
And your work won't be ruined."
"A tree too big to embrace
is born from a sleder shoot.
A nine-story tower
rises from a pile of earth.
A thousand-mile journey
begins with a single step."
"Those who know don't talk,
Those who talk don't know."
"To collect, first scatter.
To weaken, first strengthen.
To abolish, first establish.
To conclude, first initiate.
This is called subtle illumination.
Shih wei wei ming << what??
Soft and weak overcome stiff and strong.
Fish cannot escape the deep pool.
A country's sharpest weapons
Cannot be displayed."
"Conquering others takes force.
Conquering yourself is true strength."
Then we've got some Confucius...ohhh man...
"I for my part am not one of those who have innate knowledge. I am simply one who loves the past and who is diligent in investigating it."
"The wise delights in water, but the Good man delights in mountains. For the wise move; but the Good stay still. The wise are happy; but the Good, secure."
Whoaaaaaa...intense. That first Confucius one just kind of jumped out at me...I read these books and think, wow, I don't think I have any deep thoughts like that. Don't you ever wonder that, if you have ever had an original thought in your life? Is there anything left to think up? Maybe I'm just a nut, but sometimes I worry about that, that I have nothing to contribue to the world, no "innate knowledge." But I genuinely do love the past, and I think that's why it's pretty much inevitable that I'm going to be a history major. I guess that seems kind of wimpy...I have no original thoughts, so I'll spend my life looking up smart things other people did and said. But I think that's what's cool about history, I feel like there still ARE things to be discovered, there's always another point of view for everything that's happened, there's always another source to be considered...and you can write your own thoughts about it. << huuuuge geek, right here. But seriously, that quote is pretty cool. I love the second one too, just cuz it's...pretty? True? I don't know...but I like it. I guess that what sucks about Core, I love this stuff, I love all these works and the discussion part of it and even a lot of the writing assignments, but the way it's all taught, and the way it's all squished in...it really takes the enjoyment out of it. And don't even get me started on the whole crap about having to finish out the year or not get WR100 credit...blahhh. Stupid Core, awesome books. :)
EXTREMELY excited about my bio paper!! Not even kidding. I'm writing it about animal behavior and marine mammal training...can I make a smiley face big enough? I don't think so. Love it!! :)
Life plan: I am going to read all these fabulous books and become enlightened and peaceful and wonderful. Then I am going to tame free willy and swim with dolphins for as long as my little heart desires, and in my spare time, I will travel the world and read every history book I can get my hands on. Finally, I will write a fabulously world-view changing book about the history of Something Awesome (TBA). Also, I will have 24 kids and work at Disney World for at least a few years.
Sound good? Ok, excellent. Guess I gotta graduate from college first with a degree in God Only Knows What. On that note...time to type up my references for my bio paper...let it snow let it snow let it snow!! :)