[[ swivelling ]] // But the memory still remains, all those past years not so strange //
In your life you may choose desolation
And the shadows you build with your hands
School makes things seem longer. Makes me go "ooo, it's the weekend?" and treasure it. But I don't hate school, although I may say I do. Somehow.
Trust has developed a bit. But in a strange way. Down to 4 people now, which I expected really to happen. Disappointed? Not so much.
*yawn* A rundown of events...
- Cinema trip cancelled since our headteacher cancelled Christmas (very little people paid school fund in our school)
- Due to this, there is contemplation in our form class in seeing Wicked. No word about this since.
- Nevertheless, our sixth form is planning a Christmas party on Monday, after-school
Mocks (so far):
- Maths: U (it's harder than the actual exam + didn't revise)
- ICT: B, one mark from an A (didn't revise either~ so this was pretty good =3)
- Business Studies: (unknown) (did rubbish though, didn't revise although I'm predicted a B (minimum target grade))
- Economics: 1. C (haven't really revised for Economics but anyway, Economics is really hard; the highest anyone got in the January exam of this year was a C (and only one person got it) and most people failed.
2. C (was rather proud of this as it was the highest mark in class)
3. (unknown) (did really badly as I really couldn't concentrate)
- ICT coursework is going badly due to laziness
- Trust is going down the drain as it has been proved (not even once) that anything you say to one person does not stay and that people talk about you behind your back... I'm as alone as I always was and I don't belong here, but I'm not sad
- Tradefair went well. We sold our stuff from our li'l company thingys.
- Anime club has been running well... 32 members. Although it annoys me they cling to dubs so much. GOODBYE become-more-familiar-with-Japanese POLICY/MISSION STATEMENT.
- +10 green slips and prize! I got £15 worth of gift vouchers at the big shopping centre.
- I do love my life in a way.
- Sick of being called emo just because I'm open with how I feel (to an extent)
- Sick of being judged overall
- Even though I'm complaining, the friends I have now are the ones I hope to have forever and a day
- My mp3 player broke at the same time I decided I needed to revise... CONSPIRACY.
- Talking of conspiracies, did anyone watch Q.I.? About the door ledges and about how in a country, the distance between the top two is 9cm and the bottom two is 11cm? XD Well that bit in particular. Otherwise, imo, Q.I.'s going dooownhill.
- DSD lent me his Economics book which is most awesome!
- My friend is suspicious about my good marks in Economics all of a sudden and is admitting to jealousy which makes me happy
- I'm becoming smarter. I understand jokes much more slower than I used to and I have to think about it now.
- You might be asking why I didn't revise. Mainly because of:
1. Wanting to see how well I do without revision - my baseline, if you like
2. Lack of time - either doing homework or resting
So this has led to going "ooo~ I'm at thiiis grade! If I revise, I can be at this grade!".
- I'm doing better than I thought I'd be doing
- Everyone tells me to stop but I feel like I'm finally working to my potential
- I might lose friends on the way but... I also wanna find out who my true friends are
- I've been thinking about clearing my MSN list for a few weeks but when I think about getting down to it, I can't do it
- Going online often made me sad (or even just switching on my computer) because it made me think about the social life I 'sacrificed'
- I've also 1/4-sorted out my revision timetable - I never do revision timetables!
- Was out with DSD on Saturday (last week) which was cool, so we talked about random stuffs
- I could be a genius, according to him, and even surpass those I've always looked up to
- Oh, I learnt how to use Adobe Audition more =3 (finally, a Adobe product that likes me!)
- I need to podcast =x
- I could never let Nick down, so he says (academically at least, since we were on that topic)
- To try is to believe in one's self
- I'm hilarious apparently. And smart. And awesome. Say a few people. ^^; It made me think about what awesome friends I do have. =3
So... why do I love my life? Because I know who my true friends are for certain. And because I know what I want to do. Goodness, at this stage, I couldn't balance work with a part-time job. I'm kinda glad people don't like to employ me. =x
I'm... tired now. From tomorrow, I work. To be that genius they want me to be. I'm... swivelling.
If you turn to the light, that is burning in the night
Then this Journeyman's day has begun
~Miko